Is it silly for a working man to miss school?

I used to glorify school as a high point in my life because it was when I felt least lonely. Lately, though, I've been recalling terrible incidents that I had repressed. I was the victim of a series of cruel pranks, which involved my colleagues repeatedly trying to get me to drink toilet water, which they'd fill into my bottle. Some people at my old workplace used to do the same, as did my family sometime after my graduation. I don't know how people can be so awful, honestly. They didn't think of me as too smart, which is probably why they felt justified in doing what they did.

Now that I'm working a job, thankfully well away from my family, I can't help but miss learning things. Before, I was jaded. I had already accepted that I had had no future, and that any education I received would be useless since I had had no goals in life. The same holds now, unfortunately. People used to tease me for not having a life, for not having friends. But that I had neither friends nor hobbies (that my family would inevitably ruin anyway) was monumentally worse than being teased about it. Again, the same holds true now, sans my being teased for it.

Not a whole lot is keeping me going, honestly. I've my writings, one of the only things in my life that I can truly call my own. And now I have a room to myself, and for the first time in my life, privacy. With the exception of my emotionally-dependent mother, I no longer have to deal with my family, who had somehow deluded themselves into thinking I'm some idiot who deserved no respect as a human being. For most of my college career, they were convinced that I was a high-school dropout; and they burnt my diploma to somehow prove it. They used to go berserk whenever I read, did homework, or cried about being abused by them, since they thought --- and still think --- that I'm illiterate, and that I didn't have emotions any more complex than those of a dog.

I live in what I had envisaged as my paradise: Anywhere but at home. Yet, I'm still lonely, still without purpose.

Anyway, is it normal to miss school as a working man?

I must have these answers.

so you drank toilet water

Why the hell do they think that's ok? What the fuck.

Why the fuck is everyone you meet making you drink toilet water?? Where do you guys live?

it seems strange that so many different unrelated people would try and get you to drink toilet water, i agree

most mostly it sounds like you need professional help and not, uh, gamefaqs help

we're professional af tell us about the toilet water

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fK5CLplRIno

Sometimes we all like that bit if order and predictability

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ut6YtMXjaZY

you could always go on to something like skillshare and just like

learn? if you wanted to. there's really nothing stopping you from doing that if you want to, i hope

EclairReturns posted...

Lately, though, I've been recalling terrible incidents that I had repressed. I was the victim of a series of cruel pranks, which involved my colleagues repeatedly trying to get me to drink toilet water, which they'd fill into my bottle. Some people at my old workplace used to do the same, as did my family sometime after my graduation.

wtf?

EclairReturns posted...

I've my writings, one of the only things in my life that I can truly call my own.

is this one of them? I sincerely hope so

Jen0125 posted...

Where do you guys live?

I used to live in Hawaii. Now I live thousands of miles away from there.

ConfusedTorchic posted...

skillshare

While I do fantasize about learning stuff again, I do feel like my personal projects want my full attention; they've been on the backburner for too long.

acesxhigh posted...

one of them

I never think of these thought-dumps as my writings. But yes, I guess they technically qualify.

Eclair youre fine, try to stop worrying thats a terrible way to live

I know because I cant stop worrying and I just want to collapse from the exhaustion of it

Do you ever think about how much toilet water youve likely drank without knowing about it?

They call that the "intestinal swirly"

EclairReturns posted...

Anyway, is it normal to miss school as a working man?

Yes. Adults do miss their younger days sometimes. Some stuff at school I miss such as day trips, interacting with some folk and some learning. Others not so much like the bullying side of things.

did it taste different from normal water

I keep having dreams where I'm late for work because I'm stuck being in high school again.

based on the topic title i thought we were discussing a person with a job while continuing their education who needs to miss a day of school
but thats not the case

So kids at school, guys at your work, and YOUR OWN FAMILY made you drink toilet water? I would stay as far away from any of these people as you can.

were there flakes

I don't mean to bump a dead topic, but this shit has lived rent free in my head for like a week lol

How do both your classmates and your coworkers independently trick you into drinking toilet water? I would have pressed charges over that

Edit and your family?? Wtf??

Contact a lawyer or something that's definitely illegal, your family is going to poison you with that kind of abuse

lol toilet water? wtf bro

I've been having more and more flashbacks about the incidents; most of them happened after my graduation. They had kept insisting on it, and insisting on it. Soon, they had replaced the water supply in my car with it. My car was my only sanctuary away from them. I'm only remembering all this now, because I had probably repressed it all out of fear.

When I finally moved out a year ago, they sort of put in "washed" objects into my trunk against my wishes. The scary part is that I took some of the contaminated objects with me when I moved. Lately, I've been getting into the habit of throwing out anything I suspect might have been contaminated. It's been getting very stressful and costly. Some of the contaminated objects have been in contact with things that are hard to replace, such as my laptop, my dress shirts, and my coats.

In recent days, I've suspected that I might have OCD, which is worsening only now that I'm starting to remember all this. I haven't been feeling safe as of late, with the knowledge that I'd been in the presence of "contaminants" for over a year. I don't know if all the bacteria and so forth has dissipated after that time. I don't know if it's safe to touch, to handle. I'm... very scared. I feel like I'm starting to fall apart to my paranoia. It's been getting harder and harder to sleep.

bacteria die very quickly when not living in a suitable environment