Does anyone else struggle to play games as an evil character?

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I tried a renegade playthrough of mass effect once

...i got all the way to Mars in ME3 before i couldnt take it anymore.

And i was far more durable towards the subject back then

No way in hell can i do that anymore.

I can do a few "Evil" or rather, brutal, options here and there, but not full on Savage.
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