Thompson posted...
I was starting to perhaps feel a little better, then this comes up in my recommended.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fhY2z1j75z8
Now I feel sad again.
But sadness is not the exact way to describe how I feel.
Know that feeling when you know a person's 100% gone, but you still have these "nah, it's not real" thoughts? As if any day now she will upload a new video and it will be like she only did a small prank by going away for a while?
I hate that feeling. It gives me hope when I know there is none.
I am so not feeling okay right now.
I am nobody tearing over the death of a person I didn't know. I have been affected, and I hate that I am being affected so deeply, because I should not be affected so deeply.
But I am being affected, because here was bright thing that I could always count on to cheer me up in a fucked up world, but now that bright thing is gone forever because the fucked up world had to extinguish that brightness because they said "fuck you, bright thing!" simply due to pure spite.
The world is not fair, but does it need to be cruel as well?
I had more to say, but it was mostly emotional rambling not worth posting.
I hope Finnigan and Dixie Do will be ok. They probably are wondering where their favorite human is