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| Topic | Money, Love or happiness? |
| FF_Redux 09/13/17 3:55:53 AM #5 | Happiness is very important. But having my love would make me happy. So this poll doesn't work. --- |
| Topic | Called to get a doctors appointment, got a phonecall booked for 28th September. |
| FF_Redux 09/13/17 3:39:00 AM #3 | kingdrake2 posted... i wouldn't worry about it too much unless it's life threatening :(. Yeah I don't, and the nurse made the right assessment. The health centers get patients all the time and have hard time handle the amount, and many times people don't need to go there honestly. In Sweden we promote self-care a lot, but a lot of foreign people that's not something they do. Not that just they don't understand it, lot of native people don't either. --- |
| Topic | Whoa, I thought the Pennywise lip was makeup (new movie) |
| FF_Redux 09/13/17 3:34:42 AM #1 | |
| Topic | Called to get a doctors appointment, got a phonecall booked for 28th September. |
| FF_Redux 09/13/17 3:30:53 AM #1 | My counselor felt I should talk with a doctor to discuss medication and/or sick leave. But the doctor I'm listed on the health center doesn't have any times booked so I have to wait for so long. And just for phone-call, he has his own times he can book that the nurse can't so he might get me in sooner. Otherwise there was times in mid October for the nurse to book me. "Free" health care yeah, but I gotta wait this long. But I could've still gotten a time today, but it would have been some random doctor, and it would have been an acute booked time. My cause isn't really that acute. I know I complain a bit of the wait, I still would not want to change the "free" part. --- |
| Topic | What's the worst part about being sick? |
| FF_Redux 09/13/17 3:25:39 AM #12 | My coughing gets REALLY intense, it destroys me. I always end up coughing up blood. And the cough stays after the cold is over too. --- |
| Topic | Which It version was mlre faithful to the book? |
| FF_Redux 09/13/17 2:46:03 AM #7 | First one receeated scenes bit didnt have the essence and feel of he book, plus pennywise was not the book pennywise. New movie changes stories and events but has the essence and heart of the book. --- |
| Topic | Life update topic! blogfaqs, storytime (long post) |
| FF_Redux 09/13/17 2:41:55 AM #7 | |
| Topic | Sexual partners - how many have you had? |
| FF_Redux 09/13/17 2:41:11 AM #38 | hollow_shrine posted... Colorahdo posted...Like 10 Time? I was a virgin for 27 year. Met 50 guys in a year, and I had a 6 month break in that year. So 50 in 6 months. --- |
| Topic | Moon... |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 6:55:11 PM #3 | |
| Topic | I poured poop all over my dad |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 6:54:49 PM #6 | ManLink4321 posted... The poop just got cleaned off. no piks I just want pic of dad not poop --- |
| Topic | Moon... |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 6:53:54 PM #1 | |
| Topic | I poured poop all over my dad |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 6:43:41 PM #2 | pics of ur dad --- |
| Topic | Sexual partners - how many have you had? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 6:42:36 PM #3 | About 55 something I guess --- |
| Topic | IT was really good *unmarked spoilers possible.* |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 6:41:53 PM #6 | pikachupwnage posted... I love that they use Bill Skargård's natural ability to have lazy eyes. --- |
| Topic | IT was really good *unmarked spoilers possible.* |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 6:33:46 PM #3 | pikachupwnage posted... I also have enjoyed the Babadook, Cool, seen lot of ppl hating it, for me it's one of the better modern horror movies. And I'm not a horror movie guy I'm seeing IT tomorrow! --- |
| Topic | If an orgy video leaked involving every single member of the house and senate... |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 5:08:27 PM #7 | I'd prob deed to it --- |
| Topic | Your reaction: IT brings so much money they will make Part 3 film and spinoffs |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 4:54:30 PM #1 | |
| Topic | Do you know what the parent company of Circle K is called? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 4:40:36 PM #6 | Also a gas-station had to change their flag setup...  --- |
| Topic | Do you know what the parent company of Circle K is called? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 4:39:02 PM #2 | It was Statoil in Sweden for years even after Circle K bought Statoil, but last year all Statoil places changed to Circle K, sounds so stupid. --- |
| Topic | This has to be a setup!!! |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 4:34:45 PM #2 | bä,på --- |
| Topic | Conservative actor blasts gay romance movie. Gets shut down immediately. |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 4:33:54 PM #3 | Every time I see some conservative gay hater I'm almost positive they have been sampling some nice dick themselves. --- |
| Topic | I'm amazed by how many people have cracked phone screens |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 4:30:27 PM #12 | I dropped my iPhone 4 loads of times, down stone stairs, on concrete, gravel etc...and barely a scatch, no screen protector. iPhone 6, kinda same thing, didn't drop as much. I just got an iPhone 7 Plus. Dropped it once and cracked. Godammit --- |
| Topic | Life update topic! blogfaqs, storytime (long post) |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 4:24:26 PM #6 | |
| Topic | Life update topic! blogfaqs, storytime (long post) |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 3:57:15 PM #5 | GODTIER posted... Does David know about this Yes. Not maybe the 100% extent on my anxiety but yes he knows it all. Just like I know and support all his problems. --- |
| Topic | Life update topic! blogfaqs, storytime (long post) |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 3:48:51 PM #1 | Ok, so you guys seen I feel like shit. Mental breakdown whatever. I just want to vent, I don't expect you to read or respond. Yeah, I haven't been emotionally stable for a long time, years prob, yes I've handled shit, but always on my own and maybe whining on CE and alcohol. But it wasn't until a year ago things started to feel seriously bad, but I thought I could handle it. I was supposed to go to exchange student thing, but it was hard for me to do all those things I had to before going there. There was other school stress, and shit I was working on with myself, had recently had the drama with that failed attempt of relationship. That semester I failed my first ever exam. Which I took too hard which had more severe effect on me that I knew. I didn't go abroad for exchange as I should've. Because I chose to not go too late, I had to do my dissertation with my assigned partner that was going to the same place. Too late to change. So trouble started with that. We had plans on how to do it, but all plans failed. Then came spring, and I had another chance to take the exam, but my mind got blocked, I could not study, so I failed again. Stress of that and the dissertation and my partner not giving a shit about doing the things we planned got to me. We were supposed to work on it over the summer, but she didn't want to after we had decided that. Then came summer, and I had my 3rd retake of the exam, I knew I would become blocked whatever, but I ignored those feelings. Instead I drowned all my anxiety in being naked in the woods and casual sex. I did the exam, but I had studied nothing. I could not. I was breaking down. I failed of course, which made me not able to continue to my final semester. I had my meltdown. And ALL the shit I've battled on my own, shit I've endured in high school and everything, that I have no friends, everything came crashing on me. I had to get help, and I eventually with the help of my mother took that step. Now, I'm seeing a councilor that's doing CBT and stuff. It's fucking hard, I don't want to be close to my emotions. I just want to flee like I always do. Today I told my dissertation partner, I can't do it, I have to drop out. I have to take care of myself. I'm on study leave from my job, I could go back but I dunno if I can work feeling like this. I worked yesterday and Thursday and I just felt like shit, never have I doubted my abilities working because I'm fucking good at it. But I'm now so broken and vulnerable. And for the first time in my life, I feel like I'll have tight with money as well. Now I have to concentrate on repairing my mental issues, feeling better. Pass the exam in November, try to work and earn money. The best part for me is David however, my fwb, lover, friend. We have gotten closer and it might develop into something real, I dunno. But we'll see. He makes me happy and my troubles feel like nothing. I still feel like shit, I had no idea mental pain could be like this, I had no idea I could know things logically but my feelings and thoughts would still take over. It's all so damn weird. If you read all this, thanks. I just wanted to vent, and tell you guys my story. --- |
| Topic | I sense a fishy smell in my room at times. |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 3:20:56 PM #11 | Okay I found the source. It wasn't fish but it was some kind of piece of food. I have empty beer cans on my desk and in one of them was a hard blackened piece of something, then I recall putting something in one of the cans, some food thing, but I don't remember what. It wasn't fish tho --- |
| Topic | Would you try doing this? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 2:26:45 PM #3 | what the fuck --- |
| Topic | how long you gotta be with an SO to fart in front of them? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 2:21:04 PM #2 | I farted in front of David I think the second time we hooked up or something. He doesn't really do it that often so I notice, I don't remember the first time he did it openly. --- |
| Topic | Does this look like mold? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 2:14:49 PM #49 | Santorin posted... I mean maybe if it was @FF_Redux sink I would believe it Who are you? Another alt? Show your real face! Also not looking at pics cuz I have mold phobia. --- |
| Topic | Nephews outside my room sound like demon children playing |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 1:05:44 PM #7 | DrProfessor posted... A-are they murdering each other? Nah they were just playing with legos. But sometimes they fight really rough with eachother. --- |
| Topic | The 1-0 in FF topic |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 12:24:18 PM #3 | I'm FF --- |
| Topic | This has to be a setup!!! |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 12:00:38 PM #1 | |
| Topic | How can I get over feeling guilty doing something bad so it hurts someone? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 11:36:57 AM #11 | Kyurem-BW posted... best way to get over feeling bad over something you did is to make it right with her She will most likely start over, she doesn't want to interview, and we were doing interview study (I was gonna do them). --- |
| Topic | How can I get over feeling guilty doing something bad so it hurts someone? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 11:31:00 AM #8 | GODTIER posted... She's never gonna bang you now Thank god for that!!! Rexdragon125 posted...
But if there isn't any options available? Foppe posted... Your future you will take care of it, now concentrate to fix current you so future you can make it better. Yeah I know, but it's hard. LordRazziel posted... If that is truly what you needed to do for yourself, don't feel bad. I need it, I wasn't able to contribute much anyway. --- |
| Topic | How can I get over feeling guilty doing something bad so it hurts someone? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 11:22:30 AM #3 | Rexdragon125 posted... Couldn't she just join another group? It's not a group thing, it's with a partner. I dunno, I mean we should've been midway through it, I dunno how you can just do something like that. Tbh I should not put my energy into caring about it, but it's hard. I feel so guilty. --- |
| Topic | JJ Abrams will be writing and directing Episode IX |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 10:48:02 AM #7 | It's just gonna be Episode VI all over again. --- |
| Topic | How can I get over feeling guilty doing something bad so it hurts someone? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 10:46:31 AM #1 | I'm having my mental issues now and feeling like shit. I had to drop out of the dissertation class and this is leaving my ex-writing partner all by herself with it. And we were already loads behind (tbh a lot because of her you remember my topics about it). Now I feel so guilty over it, despite I prob shouldn't. I feel like an asshole I dunno. --- |
| Topic | How old are your parents? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 9:50:44 AM #3 | |
| Topic | MY mental counsillor suggested me to meet a doctor for eventual medication |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 9:20:09 AM #12 | Coffeebeanz posted... The thing about depression, especially in intelligent people like yourself, is that we attempt to justify or rationalize it, when in reality we often rely on faulty assumptions about ourselves, the world, and our ability to positively impact it. This is me yeah. And failure for me is the worst thing ever. And I know all this, but it doesn't matter because I have these records stuck playing shitty thoughts to me that I'm forced to believe in. It's so odd to be able to understand these things, but still having it effect me, I thought it would just be going into a dark place but being "dumb" about it. I really don't want to do medicine, but maybe I could just try it. I dunno. Right now I don't have the energy to do those cbt stuff she is talking about. --- |
| Topic | MY mental counsillor suggested me to meet a doctor for eventual medication |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 8:52:44 AM #9 | Coffeebeanz posted... Honestly, you strike me as the kind of person that would do well with cognitive behavioral therapy. That's what the counselor is working with me. But it's hard. Especially when I've fought my own battles without anyone's help for all my years, I've built bad thoughts, feelings and behaviors over the years that feel impossible to change now. --- |
| Topic | MY mental counsillor suggested me to meet a doctor for eventual medication |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 8:49:23 AM #7 | Coffeebeanz posted... FF_Redux posted...Honestly you are such an asshole, you should know mental stuff is hard since you complain about it all the time, Don't post if you just gonna be an asshole I'm sorry, but that pic wasn't cheering up or funny, and I'm not in a state of mood to interpret things like that as funny. --- |
| Topic | MY mental counsillor suggested me to meet a doctor for eventual medication |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 8:46:11 AM #5 | Honestly you are such an asshole, you should know mental stuff is hard since you complain about it all the time, Don't post if you just gonna be an asshole --- |
| Topic | MY mental counsillor suggested me to meet a doctor for eventual medication |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 8:43:42 AM #3 | Coffeebeanz posted... I literally cannot figure out wtf you just said I don't know any of the translations. Google says medical certification for "sjukintyg", but I feel it's not what I mean. Same with "kurator" = curator, it's not at all what I mean, when she is a counselor kinda person. --- |
| Topic | Vladimir... Putin? As in Rasputin? The Anastasia villain? |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 8:41:41 AM #8 | Here is a good song about Rasputin.  --- |
| Topic | MY mental counsillor suggested me to meet a doctor for eventual medication |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 8:39:10 AM #1 | and whatever it's called, doctors notice thing that you have to be absent from work and such cuz you are sick. Or partwise absent. I honestly don't want medication, but maybe I need to. --- |
| Topic | $1million but you will be woken up 6 am every day by this lady |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 6:09:11 AM #9 | Ok. 1 hour before you need to wake up then --- |
| Topic | Nephews outside my room sound like demon children playing |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 5:15:53 AM #5 | indeed --- |
| Topic | I sense a fishy smell in my room at times. |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 5:15:12 AM #3 | Maybe I have a brain tumor --- |
| Topic | I sense a fishy smell in my room at times. |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 5:10:08 AM #1 | But I have no idea what it is, tried to find it. And it's not me lol --- |
| Topic | Give me up to 3 songs from a single artist and I'll rate them |
| FF_Redux 09/12/17 4:59:23 AM #50 | |
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