Lurker > bshwalker

No. I have no use for one.

I dont understand how someone believes that they have power when theyre being controlled by a lobby.
If thats how it works, then hand puppets are the most powerful forms of life in the world.
Are they really that stupid?

I was feeling really low about myself because I was numb to the news of this. I had no feeling about it other than Yea, of course. Its Tuesday.
But I now realize something.
Im not desensitized to the deaths and the shootings. I feel devastated for the families and all of the people that are working with the victims trying to save a dying small child on a table, the store owners that opened their doors so that children and teachers could hide, the police officers that responded and had to shoot someone the same age as their children, the teachers
I am sick to my stomach for all of them because those people are us. It can happen anywhere to anyone. Those are my people. The common person that works and sends their children to school.

I am desensitized to the inevitableoutrage, the empty speeches, the airtime, the open mouths and tongue wagging that is nothing more than a loud blast of foul smelling air that bursts out of the bowels of the biggest bull in the history of bulls
Thats what makes me numb because no matter what is said by all these political people, absolutely nothing will change. It never has and it never will.
So as sad as I am at the loss of life, I expect less than nothing to change.
The sad and idiotic fact, is that we will be here again in a few months talking about another one. I even understand why I get so angry at Thoughts and prayers
Because it should have only needed to be said one time maybe a couple.
The fact that its said every other week is a joke.

You know? The healthcare workers that are trying to save the life of a child and the child doesnt make it
Literally hundreds if not close to a thousand people destroyed per victim
The unnamed fallout

A co-worker is not the same as a friend.
My friends would never look at the video themselves and they definitely wouldnt send it.
Coworkers do what they do for whatever reasons they have. I dont analyze their actions. They arent my friends. Maybe its to seem cool because they watch that kind of stuff? I dont know. In my opinion if they include you in a group text that shows a clip like that when youve made it clear that you dont watch stuff like that, they make it on my radar as people to keep on eye on. They arent that far from it, themselves.

Coworker sent it to me in a group text.
I deleted it immediately.
He later asked me if I watched it, I told him no.
He didnt ask why but I knew he was wondering.
I didnt watch it because thats what he wanted.