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Yeah, they were definitely talking about hospice. My mom had another operation of some sort and is feeling much better. That at least takes some burden off my mind. Still don't like what we're all going through, though.

She's feeling a lot better. She was laying on her back when we visited. Apparently they drained several liters of excess fluid out of her, likely with dead cancer cells in it.

Me and my brother are gonna talk with a couple people tomorrow. Not sure about what. Maybe some kind of home care?

My mom had an operation to drain some fluid build-up in her right kidney, so she's in a lot less pain right now and slept well.

Also had a dream where I woke up to find my game systems stolen. Fuck you, brain.

We and our mutual friend visited her at the hospital, just enjoying some Seinfeld together. That's the kinda comfort we all needed. She wouldn't want us to be constantly miserable about this. The part where she's nearing the end, that's the most trying part. I believe the next 60 days will test me. I just wish I could skip to the art where she's buried and I'm at home afterwards.

My brother's thinking of renting out the basement after all is said and done, so I'd get her room. I'm hesitant to take it, but waking up to the sun and fresh air for the first time since 2015 will probably do a lot to help me heal. I just hope he's able to rent to reputable people. Last thing I need right now/in the future is my game systems getting stolen.

Part of me can't help but wonder if her staying in her room all week was to help me adjust to her not being around. If so, it's admirable, but I'd really rather not benefit from her suffering.

Think it's time to drop a bombshell. My mom has cancer. It was discovered earlier this summer when she got that operation done. Most got removed during it. For the past week, she's been in bed, not eating much, just drinking water. Her right kidney was hurting, so she had to lay on her left side.

We're... not feeling optimistic, despite my mom having faith in God to get her through this. My dad was just over with some papers about power of attorney. Me and my brother had a hug and heartfelt talk about what we'll do after she's gone.

She's an absolutely wonderful lady who deserves another decade, at least. She's grateful to have two wonderful sons who took such good care of her. It's gonna hurt badly after she's gone, but once the worst is over and the healing starts, it'll be a weight off my shoulders that she's at peace.

Mom's in the hospital again. Apparently something is up with her kidneys, and she had a doctor's appointment today anyway, so she decided to stay. I'm obviously hoping for the best from her, but stuff like this is why I haven't felt a single positive emotion in years. Whenever big changes happen, it's always for the worse.

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My left leg acts up if I sit with it crossed over my right. It subsides after a bit, but I wonder how this will affect future gym trips.

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Anyone get anything interesting for Christmas? My most exciting present was a light in the shape of the Playstation logo. You turn it on, it gradually fades from white to blue, and you press the button to make it stop at that color.

Whoever decided to up the number of Volatiles at night in Dying Light 2 was a prick. Basically a 90% chance of getting spotted if you go out at night, which is unfortunate since there's some things you can only do at night. And while you can toughen yourself up to reliably take some down, getting spotted by them basically activates a wanted level, so killing them just makes more come.

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Starting a new game of Dying Light 2 during the winter event was a great idea. The event-exclusive zombies dropped all these sellable goods and presents that contain a variety of useful items and gear, so I'm pretty sure I'm much richer than I was normally meant to be. Because I have so much money, I don't have to choose whether to sell or salvage gear; it's salvage all the way, baby! That, combined with resources being dirt-cheap to buy, means I'm now swimming in money and resources, giving me pretty much all the throwing knives and molotovs I could ever want.

And while you do need enemy-exclusive drops to upgrade blueprints, that's been taken care of as well. The event had a special secondary currency and vendor who will trade that currency for said drops, so I've got a healthy stockpile of those as well.

I really hope they add an event toggle like Borderlands 3 did. I missed out on quite a few.

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Man, these slippers are amazing! They're so soft and light that I sometimes forget I'm wearing them. I hope my neighbor manages to get herself a fitting pair of these.

Jeez, not only did my brother and his friend get food poisoning, but the friend's young son did as well. This kid's like 7 or 8. Getting food poisoning at that age must be horrible!

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My neighbor gave me a pair of slippers. They were a Christmas present that was too big and she didn't know where to take them back. They've got this nice argyle pattern and some real soft and cozy insides. I don't care if they look like they belong to an old lady or that I have slippers already; I'm keeping them. I tried offering them to my mom, but they were too big for her, too.

Yeah, he's got food poisoning. A mutual friend of ours does, too.

Think my brother caught some stomach virus from whatever gathering/food bar he went to on New Year's Eve. If it's anything like the one I got from that Chinese chicken in 2019, I already know how to kill it. Artemisinin and a mixture of apple/grape juice and lemon juice.

Cartridge88 posted...

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Steamboat Willy '06 was the best one. Giving him a human love interest was brilliant!

Spent all of yesterday dealing with a headache and a sore spot just above my pelvic bone from where the seatbelt dug into it in the accident. Also had the theme song for Pokemon Concierge stuck in my head and can feel it trying to worm its way back in. It's a good song, but it's one that can easily wear out its welcome.

Definitely not the best start to a year I've had. This better not set a precedent.

One thing I like about the Dying Light games is how they have no shortages of places to loot. It's always been satisfying to me to clear out a bunch of hostiles from a building, then go around and loot the place clean. 2 adds a unique spin on it, because you're infected with a zombie virus that'll kill you if you don't regularly expose yourself to sunlight or UV light, and there are buildings that are full of high-tier enemies during the day, so there's a balance of risk/reward. Go in during the day, and you'll have to face down a brutal swarm, but you can always pop back out to the sun and weaker enemies. Go during the night, and the building will be easier to get through, but the streets won't reset your infection, and they'll be patrolled by really strong enemies who will relentlessly chase you.

https://youtu.be/TKFGmO-JX3g

Steamboat Willy is now public domain, so of course a horror game with him as the monster is being made.

Another terrible year ends, and another terrible year begins.

The weather report says we're not gonna get any snow until January 7th. This is gonna be a boring winter.

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Pokemon Resort was great. The whole thing is amazingly wholesome, and the art style is just gorgeous to look at! Disappointingly, it's only four 15-minute episodes long. I absolutely want another, longer season. It's just too good to only be an hour.

You don't need to be super familiar with Pokemon to enjoy it. They say the names of every Pokemon that appear, and their behavior generally gives an idea of what they're like.

Started up Dying Light 2. It's got everything that made the first great, with more of an emphasis on story branches. But I just don't really have much of an appetite for sprawling open-world games that take 40+ hours to explore anymore. Maybe I'm burnt out on them, maybe it's the ever-lingering depression from how awful the 2020s have been, or maybe I don't wanna completely waste my life going through one juggernaut time-sink after another. Much like the One Piece manga/anime, I'll sink my teeth into those in the afterlife.

Since I have the physical PS4 disc, I'm required to keep it in when playing, despite getting the free PS5 upgrade, likely so I couldn't essentially hand out free copies to other PS5 owners. Unfortunately, this also means it tries to install the PS4 version every time I start the system up, which would eat up a chunk of hard drive space. Wish I knew how to stop that.

There's been a bunch of limited-time events that have come and gone by the time I got around to playing. I hope there'll be an option to toggle between these at some point. Borderlands 3 added the ability to activate any of its three main events at will, and that was a great option. For now though, there's an event where there are zombies in Santa outfits who can drop presents with good weapons in them.

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Found this channel that does these RPs of Trump, Biden, and Obama with AI voices as they get into various shenanigans in GTAV. They're pretty funny, and everyone gets made fun of equally.

My mom says that Christmas 2016 was 72 degrees. She has a picture of the female cat sitting on our open windowsill on that day.

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While I'm waiting, I decided to open a present from a more distant family member who decided to be a bit more involved with us after we reunited at my uncle's funeral. They got me a lockbox that's disguised as a dictionary, so it could be hidden on a bookshelf among the other books.

Merry Christmas! It's a nice and festive 60 degrees here, with no snow until probably some time in January.

I'm not gonna open any gifts until my mom and brother show up, but I did open my stocking. A bunch of Lindor truffles, a packet of Land O Lakes cocoa (bring the Native American girl back, you morons), and a Little Debbie Christmas Tree cake. I always hated Little Debbie and Hostess as a kid since I thought their stuff tasted too artificial. Did like their fruit pies though. Let's see if they improved their formula since I was a kid.

...hmm, the inside tastes alright, but it's a little too sweet. The outside chocolate frosting is the real issue. It feels like I'm biting into a really soft plastic. Yeah, this isn't winning me over. The chocolate chip cookies we made from store-bought dough are infinitely better.

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It's been a day, and I'm doing fine. I've got a couple bruises forming; one on my knee and one on my hand. I've had a very small headache that comes and goes, and some very faint tinnitus. My aunt has a small bruise and some aches, but she's otherwise fine.

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A little bit of good news: I found the decorations with the pictures of our cats in them. Naturally, I put our late male cat on the top of the tree. Lord knows I could do with one of his cuddles right now...

Cartridge88 posted...

sheesh, how rude.

Well, we were broken down in the middle of an intersection during one of the most traffic-heavy days of the year. We couldn't exactly settle in.

My shoulders are faintly sore now from the seatbelt, which is to be expected. And a couple of my teeth are slightly sore, but they're the same ones that got achy from bad posture in the past, so not worried about those.

The other car could simply be pushed away by hand with the engine running, but my aunt's car had to basically be rammed out of the way by a police car, since the wheel was fucked.

Cartridge88 posted...

will insurance be able to pay for that?

I think so. I don't own any car, so I'm not knowledgeable about that, but I think she said they'd pay for it.

Cartridge88 posted...

I'd also think the cars weren't too banged up either then.

The other car hit us head on and was an SUV, so they're fine. But my aunt's normal size car got hit on the front right passenger corner, so that part was smashed. The wheel was completely out of alignment and the door was jammed, so I couldn't get out on my own. Had to have some responders wrench it open.

Guess where I've just been. If you guessed "in a car accident", you'd be right!

I was on my way home from Christmas shopping with my aunt, she tried turning left at an intersection while a straight-moving driver had the right of way and was trying to beat a yellow light. Bam!

I was in the passenger seat and they hit where I was. I was wearing a seatbelt and jerked away from them, so all I got was a bruised knee from hitting the dashboard. That's definitely gonna smart for a while.

I've taken a couple aspirin and am finally taking it easy. Got some ringing in my right ear from the side air bags deploying. The other people are okay.

Well... shit. There's this youtuber named Mitten Squad who made these great Fallout/Skyrim challenge videos and had some funny deadpan commentary. Unfortunately, he was also an alcoholic. It sunk its claws into him badly enough to hospitalize him multiple times. I just found out he passed away a little over a week ago. Cause of death isn't confirmed, but it's a safe bet the demon drink had something to do with it. Guy was only 27.