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Don't you have a college degree? Aren't you working at a job as a bus driver? Also, when I'm nervous, in pain, or riddled with anxiety, I sometimes clasp my hands together to make me feel better; and it oddly brings comfort to my disarrayed mental state. I'm not actually thinking of that Christian god that is all the rage with those Christians, so I don't think I'm actually praying. Yet, I'm afraid that people will misinterpret my gesture as so. Should I not do this in public anymore? Is it praying if I'm not trying to talk to some deity while clasping my hands together?
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I always do every one of my mandatory homework assignments.
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That brings me back to second grade when I traded away my Ho-oh--along with its sacred ash--to a kid who lived near me, in exchange for a level forty Magikarp.
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You mean an NSG with a Steal/Use exception, or just no utilization of the Sphere Grid whatsoever? I already beefed up Auron, and am before my first boss with him in my party.
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Oh, so you're poor because your fast food employment does not provide you with satisfactory wages.
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I must have these answers.
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Oh.
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Is it not illegal for Canadian news networks to lie when presenting news?
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darcandkharg31 posted...

this was before your time

Okay.
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You didn't answer my question. :(
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CacciatoPart3 posted...

farmer

That's impossible. TC is some kind of high school teacher.
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How did you two meet?
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Why is your mother digging around in there?
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I'm never happy. Fuck you.
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rogerskg1979 posted...

doomed

I was planning on studying to become an actuary or pursuing a field in data science, but certain obstacles made me sure that I am unable to go for neither of these fields. For one thing, I haven't much experience in programming, statistical or otherwise. I'm trying to learn R at the mo', but I just can't help but feel alone and miserable all the time, which makes me lose my concentration and willpower to continue studying; all the while remembering disturbing events from my past just detracts from my ability to concentrate further. Same thing for studying for actuary tests. I was planning on doing it, but then every time I think of studying, I remember how alone, miserable, and tired I am while doing it, which makes me not want to study. In any case, I'm already taking the rest of the courses I need to graduate in the spring, and I don't think they won't offer me financial aid after I get my degree, unless I want to go to graduate school, which is not something I really want to do right now. The more I think about the future, the more I wish I were a dead man. All my therapist does is give me false hope; he tells me that lots of people would like to hire someone like me. But all he succeeds in doing is pissing me off for not giving any real advice.
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rogerskg1979 posted...

your field

I don't know what that is, yet, and I'm about to graduate in the spring.
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Sarcasthma posted...

enjoy my current work

Crap, then I should have put "work you enjoy", instead of

Sarcasthma posted...

ideal job

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I must have these answers.
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darcandkharg31 posted...

teen titan

A member of a team of teenage super-heroes.
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You mean that enemy of the Teen Titans?
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LeetCheet posted...

we're all here every damn day just to complain about it

No, we're not.
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Kingdom Hearts III.
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80/80

It's currently day two of my winter vacation, and I haven't a clue what I am supposed to do. I don't think I'll ever understand how unemployed people can stand doing this for long periods at a time. It's a nightmare. I hate this lack of productivity so much. All I did today was watch my television set, screw around on the computer, and try to read a book on how to program. I must confess that I didn't spend a whole lot of time on the last thing, because I just didn't want to. I don't know what's wrong with me.

I'm ashamed to say that I lack the discipline to teach myself things because I'm just too tired to study. This has been the case with me for the past few years, and I'm starting to get sick of it. I know for certain that I've said before on this board numerous times that I'm sick of studying but this is just too big an issue for me to ignore. But it is not like my weariness has cost me any marks in my classes, since my performance has not faltered throughout my college career. Anyway, now it's my vacation time, and now I'm trying to spend it trying to learn a new skill to advertise to potential employers. But I'm just so tired all the time, to the point that I cannot even concentrate.

Not to mention the constant loneliness gets to me and makes me not want to study, as has been the case during my past few semesters. It just makes me panic and sometimes, my mind just wanders to disturbing memories of my past, which further exacerbates this problem of not being able to study on one's own. It's just that when I think about studying, whether it's financial mathematics, programming, or regular coursework, I feel too panicked and pressured to even pick up the bloody book and try. I'm just so scared nowadays, for some odd reason. The thought of studying all alone just makes it easier for me to neglect it altogether because of how miserable I'll be while studying. It's maddening, really, and very troublesome if I still want to go the actuary career route.

Nowadays, I'm just worrying a lot about what the hell I'm going to do post-graduation. I can't decide if I want to go the data science route especially with what little programming experience I have, or if I want to go the actuary route with the lack of tests I have taken and attempted to study for. I just cannot study anymore due to the thought of being in constant solitude while doing it. It scares me, but it's something that I must do and something that many people entering this field must do, and yet I'm unable to do it because of my very messed-up emotional problems.

Anyway, I've been applying to jobs in hopes of finding work for after I graduate but so far, I haven't had any luck with it. And it makes me worry, since I don't actually want to live in this state. It makes me worry even more since I don't even know which state I want to live in, if not here. I've always thought that I'd find work, then be forced to relocate to some other state to do that work; then I wouldn't need to decide where I want to live. Right now, it's like I don't want to live here, but I don't know where else to live. I don't know if I want to even bother applying to jobs out-of-state anymore because I don't know where to look for work. I might settle for getting an apartment with my brother here because I don't need to search for an ideal place for me to live straighaway, in addition to not having to live in utter solitude, which would likely drive me mad. This is my plan so far, but again, I'm having trouble finding recruiters who are willing to hire someone still in college. Maybe they'd be more open once I actually had the degree? I don't know. Anyway, this is what happens when you give me a vacation: I think way too much and end up stressing myself out over the future, in addition to my unstable mental state. So how is your winter vacation, if you have one? If you don't have one, tell me how much I take for granted.

In hindsight, this is nothing like what Roxas felt that day. In any case, I must have these answers.
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DeltaBladeX posted...

Direct Messages

Oh, this topic is about messages, not that thing that women sometimes experience due to their physiology, as I have previously thought.
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I bought an eight-dollar USB cable and realized that I didn't need it a few hours later. Needless to say, that I'm going to return it as soon as I get it to the retailer I purchased it from.
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darcandkharg31 posted...

Fried rice

I fail to see the correlation between this and moisturizing.
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I've always known it as "PMS".
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I'm intimidated by his success in life, so no.
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Weren't you that bloke what posted lots of naughty pictures of underage girls from Japanese cartoons?
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AwesomeTurtwig posted...

Gamechamp3k

Isn't he that bloke what did Breath of the Wild without climbing?
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argonautweakend posted...

Castro

Oh, they made a big deal of that in George Lopez's sitcom.
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No, it's not.
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guy12345 posted...

reaching any of you that are

guy12345 posted...

24

guy12345 posted...

or whatever and think you're a loser

Yeah, that's definitely me.
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JoanOfArcade posted...

nightmare bunny

Yes.
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JoanOfArcade posted...

I didn't see it

Oh.
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https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/boards/3-poll-of-the-day/77306921
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Huh, I could have sworn I have seen this topic a few months ago.
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FatalAccident posted...

UK

Hawaii.
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One of them has stressed that if I fail, I can just retry it over again, no matter how many tries it takes, unlike my finals, which I am sure that I got at most a B on last week. Another of them has said that it's not recommended that I put so much mental energy into stressing about my road test, since I can, again, retake it in a month's time; plus, I think she was implying that stressing so much would affect my performance. The last one tells me that since I don't plan to drive straightaway, that I needn't put so much pressure on my self to succeed since I can just retake it in a month if I fail. Two of these people are medical professionals and the first one is some bloke on the internet. Yet, I cannot help but feel that I would be a failure if I took my road test too many times; I just feel like there's a negative stigma around it, like I'm not as competent as other people (which is probably true to some extent). Anyway, do you agree with these people?

I must have these answers.
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demonfang178 posted...

inside joke

Oh.
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Why are you mentioning this one month and two weeks after it has happened?
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demonfang178 posted...

Kairi

I thought his name was Chris.
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zebatov posted...

What can you do with that?

If I recall correctly, he's either going to apply to be a bus driver or do an internship somewhere, while attending graduate school.
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Superlinkbro posted...

Crash Bandicoot 2 > Crash Bandicoot 3

This, I agree with.
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Kingdom Hearts 3D is one of the worst Kingdom Hearts games.
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(1) Comparing my life to that of other people, and realizing that my life isn't that good.
(2) Realizing that my life is stagnant partially because I do nothing to fix it.
(3) Having no friends.
(4) No longer having as much motivation or energy as I used to to go to school.
(5) Being unproductive because I'm tired all the time.
(6) Struggling with coping with disturbing memories that prevent me from doing anything productive.
(7) Having no friends to help take my mind off the past and help me enjoy my life.
(8) Being unable to be happy on my own.
(9) Being in my mid-twenties and still living in my mother's house.
(10) Worrying about being an awful friend, who cannot reciprocate any kindness offered to me.
(11) Inability to socialize like a normal person.
(12) Being afraid that people don't like me because I'm weird or talk all the time during class.

Something something, I must have these answers.... Sorry; I just don't have the energy to make a wall of text today...
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I must have these answers.
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argonautweakend posted...

dont bother

:(
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I think you're crazy. Not as much as I am, but even so.
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https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/boards/3-poll-of-the-day/77289336
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