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TopicIt's 2022 and you haven't played Fire Emblem: Three Houses?
Gamefreak1000
02/12/22 10:51:06 PM
#72
Put over 500 hours in, it's my favorite FE.

Started a challenge run recently where I stay in my room as much as possible and skip everything except the main story. My resources are super limited and it reminds me of older FEs.

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TopicWould you rather live in the USA or Japan?
Gamefreak1000
01/05/22 3:46:37 PM
#20
Japan is fun to visit but I wouldn't want to live there currently due to the work culture. That said, if I was at retiring age and could bypass the work culture entirely, it seems like a chill place to live out the rest of my days.

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Topic13 Sentinels is the best game that I've ever considered unplayable (no spoilers)
Gamefreak1000
10/30/21 2:38:19 AM
#11
I agree that the combat is overall the weakest part of the game, but I don't think it's bad. It's not for everyone, but I do think it becomes more enjoyable as you play and learn the systems. Every character has slight nuance and I enjoyed building them to fit certain niches and team layouts. Also the best songs in the OST are during the gameplay.

That said, yeah, it's really the story mode that makes the game as good as it is, and considering Remembrance takes like 35 hours as opposed to Destruction's 5 hours, I don't think it's that big of a deal. I did the story mode up until the point where I was forced to do a level to progress, and I never found it that intrusive.

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TopicLET'S BE HONEST: You never played this game. Ever.
Gamefreak1000
10/11/21 5:27:16 PM
#35
Played it many years ago and loved it. Absolutely lost my shit when Automata was announced (actually overshadowed the FF7R announcement for me lol).

Started playing Replicant but haven't gotten very far, will beat it by the end of the year though

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TopicSora's inclusion in Smash ruined my day
Gamefreak1000
10/06/21 2:07:52 AM
#25
Homeless_Waifu posted...
Damn people are posting essays on this thread!

Right? It's crazy how many people's experience seem to mimic mine! I thought I'd be the only one. I'm most excited that everyone else wanted Reimu too

tremain07 posted...


I do quite like his render, really captures the spirit of the original KH1 official art. I didn't get very far in the video, but I got far enough to see Sakurai happy

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/142235520099942400/895025415415025684/unknown.png

Arcanine2009 posted...
Have you dated since then? Fastest way to get over someone is talk to others and get into a relationship.

And try not to dwell on it. Accept what can't be changed and just learn from your mistakes. And work in yourself to become a better person. You will rebound back.

I've briefly dated a fair few women since then, mostly pre-pandemic, but it never went anywhere. I often got bored by the 2nd date, and I just wasn't emotionally available. You're right in that it does help though, I learn a bit more about myself and what I'm looking for with every date I go on. The big reason I fell into the mess I did was because of my lack of boundaries, and I've been working on that slowly but surely. At the very least, I now have enough self-respect to avoid such a toxic relationship in the future.

FortuneCookie posted...
I'm so angry, I could write a book!

I have written some other pieces throughout the years regarding this, and I've considering putting it in a book. As shitty as the whole thing was, I learned a lot of valuable life lessons that hopefully others can avoid. I'll let you know when it's published!

joe40001 posted...
I don't know what to make of that post. But I'm very sorry if you are hurting.

Life is so sad compared to when we were young. :(

Word, I don't know what to make of my post either lol. I'm pretty satisfied with the Smash Ultimate roster, and I didn't think I'd care much one way or the other who the final DLC was, then I got hit by a truckload of emotion lol.

That said I do feel better, if a bit drained. Like I finally let go of some of the shit that's been plaguing me. Rather let it out in an overly wordy post than let it circle in my mind during bouts of insomnia.

For now, a good nights sleep is all I need, and I plan to go to bed soon. Eager to check out Sora's gameplay when I'm in a more stable state of mind.

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*hug*

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TopicSora's inclusion in Smash ruined my day
Gamefreak1000
10/05/21 11:21:01 PM
#17
cjs28 posted...
tl;dr lol

ye lol

FL81 posted...
Sora's gameplay looks really cool though, and I am happy with his inclusion

Yeah, I think he's a great final pick and I'm happy for all those excited. Haven't been able to watch his gameplay yet, plan to do it tomorrow after a good nights sleep. I'm sure Sakurai did a good job as he usually does.

Arcanine2009 posted...
I think you should see a therapist if it's affecting you this much.

I know how you feel.. Certain things trigger negative emotions due to memories shared in the past with someone, but if it makes you feel netter-- thats going to happen anyway no matter what on days you least expect, and especially when you aren't keeping yourself occupied. But they come and go, and even though no closure sucks ass, I think if you just forgive yourself and forgive her on what happened, you can move on. Focus on being on being a better version of yourself, keep yourself occupied and happy, and start dating again and it will be much easier.

And I think you should think of the good times you have with kingdom of hearts and do your best to stay positive in general. Who says you cant meet someone else who gives you good memories?

Thought about therapy for awhile, don't really have the money though. Maybe one day.

For the most part I'm alright and hold myself together pretty well, some days are just worse than others. Today involved confronting a series I've avoided for years now, and I wasn't prepared for that. I do feel it's a step forward however, and tomorrow I'll be better. I appreciate the thoughtful response.

Veggeta_MAX posted...
Active Posts: 4

Damn, that's more than I was expecting. I usually just lurk. Felt like getting this off my chest and didn't know where to post it.

Returning_CEmen posted...
I would like someone to do an epic voice retelling of that post

I didnt read that shit btw

I could, but considering you didn't read it, I don't think it'll be anywhere near as entertaining as you expect lol

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TopicSora's inclusion in Smash ruined my day
Gamefreak1000
10/05/21 9:33:40 PM
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Kingdom Hearts is a series I used to love. It came out right after I turned 12, and I followed it for years. I played every game as they released, buying a PSP primarily for Birth by Sleep. People say the series has a story that's impossible to follow, but it's really not if you just play all the games. Granted, thats easier said than done considering the series jumped around so damn much. The first sequel (which isn't even called KH2) was on the GBA lol.

I beat Dream Drop Distance for 3DS and liked it, it was a setup for the then-announced KH3 and I was curious how stupidly off the rails the story would continue to get. During the 7 year gap between DDD and KH3, I met someone. She was really into Kingdom Hearts, among many of my other interests. We met at work, and she would attend Smash Bros tournaments. She was relatively good (but I still wrecked her lol).

I've never met someone before or since whom I just so naturally clicked with. This goes beyond games and interests, we had a similar sense of humor and she understood all my stupid jokes, we got along great, and quickly grew very close. She lit a fire in me that acted as my source of strength during troubled times. Frankly, she was a complete mess, but they say love is blind, and I wanted to be there for her when the rest of the world wouldnt.

In 2017, we moved in together. Primarily because she was getting kicked out of her current residence (like I said, her life was a mess) and she didn't have anywhere to go. Aside from family, I never lived with anyone else before, although I was looking for a new place at the time. I hesitated, but eventually signed a lease with her.

Actually living with her wasn't easy however, she had a lot of drama, suicidal tendencies, and communication issues. I continued to deal with her through it, because I cared about her so fucking much, but in the end, it all fell apart. This was inevitable honestly, but it still utterly broke me. I made the incredibly stupid mistake of placing my value and self-worth with her. If she was happy, I was happy, and I would do everything in my power to make her happy, my needs be damned. When we split, I didn't know what to do with myself. I was crushed and couldn't figure out how to pull myself up because my source of strength, her, was gone.

This was during the 2nd half of 2017. I started living alone, which as a whole I much prefer, but I was horrendously suicidal and depressed. With no one to check my actions but myself, I started smoking weed. Heavily. They say one issue with weed is that it leaves you unmotivated, that it makes you content with boredom and you do nothing. Considering how much I wanted to kill myself, I think "doing nothing" was one of the healthiest things I could do at the time.

To this day I'm a functional stoner. I've smoked weed near daily over the past 4 years. The impacts of that event still haunt me. Truthfully I feel embarrassed and ashamed about the whole thing, how someone I only knew for a year could cause the sort of damage that lasts over four times as long, but I also feel it's a testament to how much I cared. She changed my life.

Things ended on very bad terms between us, and it's really the lack of closure that kills me. If we simply weren't on speaking terms it'd be one thing, but the fact that someone I care so deeply about thinks so negatively of me just....breaks my heart.

I've moved on in many ways, pulled myself out of depression as much as I could, found some of the joy in my hobbies again, but the scars remain and very well may stick with me for the rest of my life. It was an experience in grief, and even though I've gone through the stages and accepted the reality of it, that doesn't mean it no longer hurts. I started going by my last name not long after the whole ordeal, because I haven't felt like myself in a very long time.

That got much lengthier than I intended, but maybe now you can understand how the love of a video game series I treasured for over a decade can vanish in a puff of smoke. I associated her with Kingdom Hearts, and in 2017 during the leadup to KH3, the sight of anything from the series would cause a bolt of sorrow to pierce me. KH3 was a game I looked forward to for many years, you can even find the deluxe edition sitting on my shelf alongside the rest of the franchise, but I know nothing about it, and I can't bring myself to play it, nor do I really want to.

For this reason, I didn't really care if Sora made it into smash, despite being one of my top picks during the Smash 4 era. I wrote him off as a never ever, assuming Disney would never play ball, but Sakurai works his magic as usual. I tried to avoid spoilers, but when I searched for the direct this morning, the title had already been updated to include his name lol. My initial reaction was a mere "oh, well, ok....."

I began watching the trailer anyways, and unexpectedly I felt moved. The beginning of the KH theme gave me chills, and I couldn't keep the smile from my face when Sora appeared from the keyhole. It helps that it's KH1 Sora, since I still fondly think of that game, and it came out during a time long before adulthood fucked my shit up.

My feelings shifted once I saw him in-game, standing next to Mario. Naturally I remembered her, and I remembered the days we would play Smash together. I wonder what she thought. Was she excited? Did she care at all?

The cruel reality is I will never know. My lack of closure was brought up full force, and I broke down. I started crying, the messy crying where your nose is runny and the pain leaks out as ugly moans. There's still a deep sadness rooted in the pits of my soul, and that trailer just dug it out into the open, overwhelming me.

My entire day has been shot, but organizing my thoughts like this helped, and the extremely low-key initial excitement of the trailer showed me that I still do care for the series in some way, deep down. While not anytime soon, perhaps I will play KH3 afterall one of these days. I feel like today has pushed me forward one step. A painful, uncomfortable step, but a step none-the-less. Ultimately I think it's a good thing, but I'd trade this progress in a heartbeat to replace Sora with Reimu Hakurei lol.

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TopicJAKAS plays 13 Sentinels! *progressive spoilers! Seriously, spoilers*
Gamefreak1000
08/16/21 2:14:56 AM
#45
Tag, great game.

Jeff AKA Snoopy posted...
Did you get enough Mystery Token's to unlock everything?

I unlocked all mystery files before finishing all the battles in destruction, so you should be fine. Make sure to do the bonus objectives to unlock other files.

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