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Phynaster posted...

Im firmly of the belief, and ive yet to see anything to prove me wrong, that conspiracy theorism results from a boring and unfulfilling life. Untraveled, unfulfilled people feel a need to concoct grandiose narratives to make life seem more mysterious or exciting than theirs is.

@Phynaster Thank you for at least commenting something real.

I've been to many countries. I've acted and spoken to audiences of hundreds, by myself. Just tonight I was editing a film project I was shooting earlier in the week (just a stupid funny little video, nothing serious, but a lot of fun, got to work with actors). I have a beautiful girlfriend who tells me she loves me. I'll be getting married before too long. I really love my life right now. Not everything, but most of it is amazing.

But, I have had many traumas in life. I went through bad stuff as a child, which caused me to act out later on in certain ways, and put myself deeper in the hole. I got to the point where I wasn't just dealing with the trauma others inflicted, but what I inflicted on myself.

I am self aware enough to know that this is what likely started my fascination in my teens and now with these subjects.

Us conspiracy theorists ask a question "What is wrong with the world?" But, most of us don't ask ourselves why we had to ask that question. And the truth is this: We want to know what is wrong with the world, because we want to know what is wrong with ourselves.

So I'd say, you are onto something with this statement here, but you haven't quite nailed it, because you aren't trying to actually understand these people. But I welcome and encourage you to do so.

I know it's because subconsciously I was asking that question "What is wrong with me?". I am still trying to understand it. I go to therapy to get help with that. I still love my life.

But just because I can acknowledge that, doesn't magically make the information go away. Now I have to be self aware, but also acknowledge that there is something going on I can't deny. And with the truth, it often lies in a middle ground we don't want to acknowledge. Not just one side or the other, fully right or fully wrong