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I bought a couple of games and I've been playing them today.

adjl posted...

therapist that specializes in depression.

Okay. We need to drop this. The "depression" issue was resolved. I am absolutely not depressed. The factor that was causing my long term depression in the past was resolved. It took a lot of effort but I no longer need to think about a psychopath needing to micro manage every element of my life anymore.

adjl posted...

hobby

Please, please tell me how many more hobbies I need. I work Monday to Friday, 5am to 2:30pm (roughly). I will use the time after that to walk to stores and whatnot. Window shopping if you will. I have money, but there's only so much money I'm willing to spend in a week and so many things I can buy.

I've picked up playing card games on Friday nights, specifically Pokemon. The game store I go to does Wargaming on Tuesdays, Flesh and Blood on Wednesdays, Commander, on Thursdays, Pokemon + Vanguard on Fridays, Pathfinder on Saturdays, and Lorcana on Sundays. The issue is that the amount of people who actually attend is pitiful and it's a bit discouraging to me. Also I can only budget so much to buying pieces of paper.

Okay, I still have SOME time to play video games, but they largely aren't new or interesting to me. I dropped $80 on the FFT Remake and Hades 2 today. I'll get some good time out of both of these (currently doing a hard mode run of the FFT Remake) but because I don't like video games doesn't mean that I'm "depressed" especially as I've been saying for years I don't like video games, and me quitting STO basically allowed me to get control over my life after 15 years of basically being someone's servant.

I've also picked up cooking, because you like need to cook to survive. I hate takeout (expensive, usually meh quality food and I'm having a good time working on the apartment. Basically I purchased a hole in the wall that needed some work done to it to make it mine. I'm handy to a degree and I've been having fun with that, but that can also only go far (also things cost money) and there are some things like a Washer and Dryer I did the math on (and the time optimization on) that basically make it non-trivial for my whole load of laundry a week (which costs me $6-7 to do at a laundromat)

And yea, what else have I done recently that's hobby-ish? I've been doing some programming on the side (far less recently, the move disrupted that) and I've invested into AI stuff recently (I just bought a 7900 XTX for AI, not for gaming but once again, there's only so many hours I can invest a week, and the topic is adjacent to work as the AI parts I'm interested in are all related to software development (e.g. agentic coding).

What's left? "Go to the gym". I'm already spending a good deal of time outside walking (because I have some blockers preventing me from learning to drive right now, but those should clear up soon), but join a gym? I've actually debated it because I'm not against it, but I'm still a few pounds underweight and I'm monitoring that for the time being as well (I'm trying not to change my diet too much from before and after the move).

I genuinely cannot emphasize how much I've changed in the past couple of months. The "depression" you guys saw over the years was because I was in a situation I genuinely felt that I could not escape, but someone dear to me helped me get out of it when I finally grew the balls to ask them - and I wasn't even going to ask them in the first place.

The difference between me and other people is that I don't like being lazy / slacking off / relaxing. I like to be constantly doing stuff. That makes finding enough stuff to fill the holes difficult and some of the things that people do to fill those holes (e.g. going to a bar, collecting random shit, watching tv) don't appeal to me.

So seriously, I have actually made changes in my life. Old dog shit on the floor Judgmenl doesn't exist anymore, and only existed because a psychopath was controlling my life. Now that part of my life is over, I feel like I can actually talk about it now.