Last Topic: 4:11:00pm, 04/04/2012
Last Post: 5:58:00pm, 04/03/2012
I know I've been acting like a dick since... ever. I know I hopped on the alpha male train not to long ago and never looked back. I thought I had gotten past my pathetic "nice guy" self who wouldn't take chances with his life, and got mad when he did and failed. But all I did is convince myself that that person didn't exist anymore.
I haven't changed. I still expect to be handed things because I'm to much of a beta to reach for them myself. I still resent the world, and especially women, for not giving me the things I feel that I'm entitled to, because I'm just that special. Despite all that, I thought I could convince myself that by following the letter of the law written by the men I wish I could be, that I could change my life. But that comfort only lasts as long as my ignorance.
I know this is a part of me, and it's a part I'm not proud of. I'm tired of trying to convince myself that I've changed when I haven't, and that good things will come to those who wait and pretend that they've earned them by sitting on their ass playing video games all day.
I want to change, because I want to be able to be happy with myself, not hoping that the world will fill in the gaps in this shell of a life. I want it to be genuine this time too. It's time for me to man up, Board 8. See you there.
tl;dr: I'm sorry for being an ignorant douche for the better part of a decade, I'm ready to grow up now. Also changing user names.
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I like how each new topic you make reveals such varied facets of your idiocy. - foolmo
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TO PROTECT THE WORLD FROM DEVASTATION
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i have nothing against pedophiles especially the ones that actually act on their desires
-Palmer
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