Last Topic: 8:40:33pm, 10/01/2018
Last Post: 1:37:15am, 09/13/2017
It feels weird to complain about it... Especially after reading through the topic.
IIRC, it was my first year of highschool. I was finding out that the world works very differently than I thought it did, it was scary. My mom had a medical condition that was getting worse... At the same time, she was trying to get me to make friends with just about anyone, and hang out with family members that clearly didn't like me.
We had financial problems, the power and hot water would go at random. So, it felt like I was freeloading off a friend of mine. I wasn't even sure if I could say we were friends, considering this was the situation I met her in >_>
School work seemed like too much on top of all that. Although, at the time, I though I was just increadibly incompetent. I looked like a mess most of the time, didn't get enough sleep, and people were clearly treating me differently... That all made the idea of going to school even less appealing. And it didn't seem like I had much of a future as an adult... I feel like it's downplay actual depression to say that I was ever depressed, but that's probably the closest I was.
All of that seems so long ago, and totally irrelevant now. This has been by far my best year so far :D