Sorry to hear TC.
I lost my dad two years ago and I'm leaning to believe a lot of these processes are exhausting in their own way. I mean for starters we didn't have a perfect relationship, and his ego persisted through the process.
I mean for sure he was clearly going through it. You get told you have pancreatic cancer, and what that means, I'm sure your mind goes everywhere. But per his usual self he just wanted to be difficult, making it a juggling act of being concerned for his life but also having to challenge him to prevent him from going overboard with demands.
You live with that situation for a few weeks, or perhaps just a few days, or even just multiple stints of hours straight, you're definitely being realistic in expressing this TC. There's just this type of stagnation in the face of expiring time, especially when your mom can't talk. But you being able to be the vocal one in this stretch, make the most of it.
It's tough, but you can kinda embrace the fact you still have/had the time in the hospital. My uncle almost died in front of me. Sudden terms, just relatively speaking, would be harder to cope with imo.
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