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Ryetoast posted...

HolierThanMao posted...

@KogaSteelfang congrats, i always knew you'd hit it off with someone here

My man!

Real funny...
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Orlando_Jordan posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

I've had that happen a couple of times, back when I tried tinder. I gave up after a couple of weeks and just didn't check it for months. When I did check it again I'd seen a message from someone like 5 months earlier. I sent an apology, and she was ok with it. Talked for a day and then she never responded after lol. Then I deleted my account.

Your seduction skill was too low. You have to level up.

She messaged that I was prettier than her lol. So I apologized and explained why I never responded. She said it was ok, then I told her that it wasn't true. She thanked me, and we talked for a bit about jobs and it ended. *shrug*
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I've had that happen a couple of times, back when I tried tinder. I gave up after a couple of weeks and just didn't check it for months. When I did check it again I'd seen a message from someone like 5 months earlier. I sent an apology, and she was ok with it. Talked for a day and then she never responded after lol. Then I deleted my account.
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I'm probably up there. I'm a true shit poster.

ssj3vegeta_ posted...

Also your thoughts on users who will nominate demselves in dis topic?

Don't care.
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I was doing good for a while, decent job, saving money, looking for an apartment, going out trying to be more social.

But I recently quit my job, have no income just living off my savings. Still stuck in the same living situation. I'm frustrated, and super depressed right now. Don't have anyone to talk to, and struggling to not post about that stuff on here. I know I'm unwelcome, it's just the only place anyone talks to me.

So yeah, negative progress. Just sinking deeper into the void.
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The last girl I was interested in dealt with a lot of unwanted attention. She quite beautiful, and some of the other coworkers even sexually harassed her. I really wanted to ask her out, but I also didn't want to just add another person to the list of unwanted suitors. So I just left her alone.
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A nice hot shower, so I guess that'd be the bath one. That and a nice satisfying meal.
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Like 3.5ish. My family life has actually been semi-tolerable, found a job I liked for a while, and saved up a decent bit of money. Everything else was terrible though, this has probably been one of my most miserable years for over a decade. Very nearly ended up being sent off for psych evaluation or whatever. Then my dog died a week before my birthday too, plus struggling with all the normal crap and alienating a bunch of people. I'm just not in a good place right now and haven't been for a long time.
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Darkman124 posted...

i literally have never had glitch problems with the game

always surprised by others'. my friend who streams has tracked like 15 times that she has fallen through the entire world

Just happened to me like 20 minutes ago. Fell right through, it slowed down at like 8k deep. Then after reloading my file, I had the opposite problem from my earlier post, could swim and drown in the air. Was going to check out the top of the aurora if I could, but it randomly popped back to normal. I didn't want to risk it so I just shut it down for the night.
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Man, I've been playing this game non-stop. But, some glitches are huge pains. Nearing a major point in the story in extremely dangerous terrain, bam, an attack glitches it where I can't swim... Was just walking along the bottom with no way out. >_>
Reloaded my save, but was still glitched. Luckily dying fixed it, but it left all my stuff at the bottom if the ocean. Had to recreate it to get back to it.

Now I finally got past that part, and now the game crashes every time I leave the next area. Once was right when someone started watching my stream too. Then again right after.

I love this game, it's so eery and cool, but dang it's frustrating sometimes.
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It really is. Was playing it earlier today. I'm very much enjoying it.
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cavalierking posted...

dude, the only people who think you're good-looking are fellow cemen whenever you make your pity posts about being a 35-year-old virgin or whatever

to me (and most others, i'm sure), you just look really awkward and "off"

That's what I always thought, that they were just comforting me. Thanks for the honesty.
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Yeah, I'm supposedly a fairly good looking guy and everyone expects me to be confident, and to have a successful social life because of it. Instead I'm incredibly insecure, with low self esteem, and afraid to interact with people. I shy away from conversations and clam up when I'm uncomfortable, apparently my body language indicates that I'm not interested when I'm really just struggling to find something to say.

So, looks = Attractive, confident guy, who just isn't interested.
Personality = Super shy, desparate for friends/affection, and unable to navigate a conversation.

I think it's the gap between what people expect, and what they actually get, that makes it difficult for me. I guess I'm just unlikable.
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Fine, I won't post any more.
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Kineth posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

Why would someone choose to burden themselves with a person like me?

If you don't advertise/sell yourself, you'll never know because you won't give anyone the opportunity to give you an answer.

My SO and I have known each other for 22 years. She apparently had been in love with me since year 2 (8th grade), because of something I did on the end of the year field trip. Sometime in the last 2-3 years, her and I actually talked about that day and reminisced about it. I knew she had had a crush on me for awhile at this point, but I didn't understand why. That was the night we genuinely exchanged ILUs.

That's an answer to the question you posed that I wouldn't have fucking expected. That said, it's hard to find someone with a pure, loving devoted heart so don't think you've failed just because some people are actual saints.

Were you "selling yourself" on that field trip? She fell in love with you because she saw something she liked in you. There's nothing like that in me.
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Crayon_Lover posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

Like 5 I think. I know it's not a lot, but it's enough.

So about once every seven years. Or three years if you first asked someone out when you were 20. Doesn't sound like a whole lot of effort

Those are just the irl ones, which are by far the least I've tried. Can probably add another hundred or two if counting online, and assuming matching with someone and never responding to a message or sending a message counts.

Coupled with my family, classmates, so called "friends", everyone I've ever been interested in, and loads of people on this site all agreeing that I'm worthless. Yeah, I don't see much point in hoping things will change.
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SpiralDrift posted...

I do know how you feel. I went through all of that when I was younger. I also had people telling me that I was attractive enough and they couldn't understand why I hadn't been with anyone yet. You hear those things but it doesn't mesh with how you feel so it's hard to accept. And even if you can accept it it's like it still doesn't matter.

I remember being really embarrassed about being a virgin, but at a certain point I just stopped trying to sugar coat it since it didn't seem to help anyway, but to my surprise that somehow made a difference. I stopped showing any sign of shame. This is how I am, take it or leave it. Ultimately what I found was that if a girl is attracted to you it won't make any difference unless it makes a difference to you. If you're not a virgin, she'll envision you as a stud. If you are, she'll just weave some other fantasy around you with her as the star. It can even be a good thing to some.

That all hinges on actually attracting someone. I wish I could attract someone, but I can't.

GasMonkey posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

Why would someone choose to burden themselves with a person like me? I am 100% completely undeserving of any form of love. I'm nothing but a piece of shit, not even worth acknowledging. Loads of people agree too, so why even bother? I'd just ruin their life too if someone somehow managed to like me.

well tbh... if this is where your mind is, then yeah youre correct. self fulfilling prophecy and all that. gotta love yourself and just be you before you have a chance at attracting and keeping a SO

It was fulfilled before I started thinking that way.
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SpiralDrift posted...

I don't doubt that you've tried but failure is to be expected. Fail and fail again but keep trying.

I would recommend staying off of Tinder. It's just going to make you feel worse. If I were you I would just focus on talking to lots of girls online without putting any expectations on it. It can still be a huge confidence booster just to be able to keep a girl's attention for a while. It may be 1 in 20 that go past the initial greeting but it's a numbers game really. Small steps can lead to big things.

Tinder is the one thing that made me feel like I had hope. I actually got plenty of matches, just none led anywhere. But it at least made it seem like some women would be willing to give me a chance.

No ones interested in me, they never have been. One girl from okcupid straight up told me she would never be with someone like me, after correctly guessing I was a virgin. This woman wasn't exactly what you'd call attractive either. Been shut down by others on there too. And others irl as soon as they thought I might like them. I always thought if I could just manage to attract and get a girlfriend just once, it'd prove its not impossible and would boost my confidence and self esteem. But no, it is actually impossible.
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Guide posted...

I'll tell you one thing that is actually good, or at least not bad, about yourself, something even you can't deny: You don't seem to be an incel. You're not blaming other people for your problems. Even if it's in an unhealthy way, you're at least owning up to your own issues.

Well, it's undeniably me that's the problem. I don't understand how people can blame everyone else for stuff like this.

Crayon_Lover posted..

How many different people have you been rejected by IRL?

Like 5 I think. I know it's not a lot, but it's enough.
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SpiralDrift posted...

I was a late bloomer too but eventually realized what I'm telling you now. Once the pain of loneliness outgrows the fear of failure maybe you'll understand.

But basically it's like failing a mission in GTA and then running amok because you've already failed anyway. There are no additional consequences once you've failed. That's it, man. The worst scenario is already there. It makes no sense to keep playing it safe.

You say that like I haven't tried and been rejected. I've tried online dating, I've tried getting close to people irl, I've even tried tinder. Nothing works. If it wasn't against the tos, there'd be 2 dozen people in here agreeing that I'm just a piece of shit. Most of which were the only friends I've ever had.
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Dark_SilverX posted...

SpiralDrift posted...

Think about it, man. Think about it. You could be sitting across from an honest to God female and have her full attention fixed on you. Pheromones, hair, the whole deal. Don't you want that, if even for just one day?

This. He can do it, he's just lazy.

Of course I do. But I have 35 years of proof saying it's not going to happen.
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As far as I recall, my parents were always honest about it. I can't remember a time when I believed he was real. I do remember getting a talk about not telling other kids he wasn't
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SpiralDrift posted...

Can you meet up with a girl and get a little bit of attention for a day?

-_________-
You must have mistaken for anyone else.
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Dark_SilverX posted...

Mareen posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

Why would someone choose to burden themselves with a person like me? I am 100% completely undeserving of any form of love. I'm nothing but a piece of shit, not even worth acknowledging. Loads of people agree too, so why even bother? I'd just ruin their life too if someone somehow managed to like me.

I don't know you but I'm gonna say that is untrue.

Yeah this

Sorry, but you guys are very wrong.
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Why would someone choose to burden themselves with a person like me? I am 100% completely undeserving of any form of love. I'm nothing but a piece of shit, not even worth acknowledging. Loads of people agree too, so why even bother? I'd just ruin their life too if someone somehow managed to like me.
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DoubleOSnake posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

Yes.

hey i haven't seen you in a while koga, how are you?

I'm alright I suppose. Thanks for asking.
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Yes.
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Never have, almost certainly never will.
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It'd have to be some relatives as babies when I changed their diapers or something. That's been many years ago, as my cousin who lives with me is 18 now.

Although once I saw a presumedly naked lady in my neighbor's window one night. She was topless.
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I guess a surgeon when I was 9. I'm guessing they removed the gown during the procedure. If not them, then my mom when I was little.
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Anti-245 posted...

Everyone told me I was attractive but I refuse to believe them.

This. Get told one thing, treated like another. Actions speak louder than words and all. Though in this case, it's mostly you guys, a few family members, and an occasional person I meet onice and they supposedly say it to someone else(doubtful).

I'm of the mindset that if I were attractive, I would have attracted someone by now.
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Yes, I despised school. I liked the actual class parts, but I couldn't deal with my classmates. I was the class outcast, no one would interact with me for fear of ruining their reputation. Unless of course it was to pull some kind of stunt to embarrass me or something. Most of it was just normal bully stuff, but there was a small group that were determined to make sure my life was miserable. They took things pretty far sometimes, and no one else cared.
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"Your power is eating anything."
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KogaSteelfang is my main.
@ThorsStone is the alt I never use and forgot the password for. I don't care enough to get that sorted out. So I'm just sticking with this one.
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I saw something similar at a water fountain once. A girl was filling her bottle up with water, and some got on her hands. She did the thing where you fling your hands to dry them and she tapped the guy behind her right in the crotch. They were both surprised, she apologized and he seemed kind of annoyed.
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LinkPizza posted...

@KogaSteelfang

Wish granted.

Also, gonna go ahead and call on @TheGreatNoodles
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Lost_All_Senses posted...

This sounds way more like how he would misinterpreted something the doctor said. Not to be a dick but all Koga knows is self deprecation so anything said to him probably gets twisted into something where the person is attacking him directly.

clearaflagrantj posted...

Yeah not being mean to Koga, especially since I do like the dude, but the therapist maybe was just trying to be super direct. Like "it is common for formerly abused children to repeat their parents' pattern, would you be able to break the cycle? If not maybe children aren't for you."

I'm of the opinion that brutal truths are better than pleasant lies. It's real fucking hard to accept in practice though.

I know everyone thinks I'm just a liar, and twist everything to be worse than it is, but that's not the case. That's literally what he said to me, no interpretation or twisting going on there. The dude was just an asshole. Those may not be his exact words, since it did happen like 3 years ago, but he flat out told me I shouldn't have children because I would just abuse them myself. That's not all he said either, he lots of things that a professional probably shouldn't have. I don't mind people being direct, or dealing with harsh truths, but that's not what he was doing. Not that it matters, you guys already decided I'm wrong.
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Its hard to choose, my entire life has been awful. I suppose if I were forced to choose though, liwest would be a few years ago when I started therapy. I was in a really bad place mentally at the time. I was honest about what I wanted from life, and told my therapist that my ultimate goal in life was to become a father. He told me I shouldn't have children, because he thinks I'd be a horrible father and abuse them like my father did me. That pushed me over the edge, and I prepared everything I needed to end my life. I had everything set up and was preparing to do it, but I decided it might be worth it to try medication and talk this through with him instead. When I told him what I was going to do, he responded by saying that based on my situation he could see why I would want to, and never brought it up again... That whole period of my life was even more miserable and confusing than the rest. I know I need to try therapy again, but after him, I don't know if I can.

Highest is also tough, because there hasnt been anything good in my life either. I guess graduating high school would be it, just because I despised being around my classmates.
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clearaflagrantj posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

People did get upset over the movie being spoiled, that spoiler being Spider-man far from home, and Black Panther 2 being confirmed. Getting a hint as to how that happens is much, much less of a spoiler compared to the previous. So it's understandable why people give it a pass this time around, because the more important plot has already been officially been spoiled.

You literally thought they would introduce these well received characters that generated hundreds of millions in revenue and then throw away the opportunity for guaranteed blockbuster sequels in the name of artistic integrity?

Hate to break this to you, but they are making these movies for MONEY.

I never said that. But them going ahead and confirming the next set of movies immediately killed any kind of set up they built with infinity war. Of course we all knew they'd be saved, but it's different when the movie sets you up to believe they're in such a dire situation and then it's announced that they get follow up movies before the current situation is resolved.
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People did get upset over the movie being spoiled, that spoiler being Spider-man far from home, and Black Panther 2 being confirmed. Getting a hint as to how that happens is much, much less of a spoiler compared to the previous. So it's understandable why people give it a pass this time around, because the more important plot has already been officially spoiled.
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The bottom 3 options.
I don't think anyone would ever accept me as a partner. I've proven to be a horrible person who simply doesn't deserve a partner. So, the never option applies too, I just don't see it as a possibility for me any more. But I do hope that I'm wrong, and that I can manage to get married one day. But that dream is up there with things like winning a billion dollars in the lottery, or some super rich distant relative leaving a fortune when they die. Sure, it's technically possible still, but it's not something that's really going to happen.
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We got like a foot and a half, but it engulfed my mom's car.


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That picture was creepy. That aside though, the idea behind it does make me a bit sad though. Not particularly that I missed the "teen love" thing, but more that love in general seem out of reach. At this point in my life, it's looks like a certainty that I'll never manage to be with anyone, and that hurts. It's much more frustrating seeing posts here by people actually being successful than seeing that pic is. I can't hold anything against people living their lives though, so that frustration gets turned inward. I'm a special kind of pathetic, so it's no wonder everyone hates me.
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Obviously, yeah. I can't even manage to make a friend. I guess that's just natural though, no one wants to associate with such a worthless piece of shit person. I just wish I could stop caring about it.
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apolloooo posted...

Why dont doctor strange open a portal, then behead thanos?

This was my biggest problem with it. They show early on that his portals are very capable of severing an arm. Just cut it off of him. Should've at least tried and had the stones disrupt the portal or something. As it is, we're just left to wonder why this collection of brilliant minds didn't even consider the most obvious solution.
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