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The western part of Virginia, USA.
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We were a broken family to begin with, but yeah, I didn't think he'd willingly just throw us all away like that.
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My brother and I did not get along very well when we were younger. He liked to imitate my father and looked up to him, which basically meant hurting me any way he could. Including nearly killing me once by purposefully trapping me in a dog house with a hornet's nest inside, then flipping it over so I couldn't get out and knocking the next down on me...

Fortunately, he eventually saw the truth about my father and changed his ways. We actually got along pretty great as adults for the most part. Until he met his wife anyway, then he basically cut us out of his life entirely. So I rarely even see him any more. Maybe on his birthday, or Christmas, when he expects gifts.
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Rika_Furude posted...

oh my god

what if they do continue to series

but everyone who was snapped away, stays gone forever. dead. and new spiderman movie occurs chronologically before infinity war

I'm fairly certain it's already been confirmed to take place after.
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Happy birthday guys!
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Genocet_10-325 posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

SSJCAT posted...

i see ugly guys with beautiful women all day every single day. yall are creating your own problems.
get some confidence, be a friendly and interesting person, and girls will respond to a persons vibe and energy much more than their looks.
from my experience, men are much more shallow than women are.
quit being a whiny bitch and get laid

That's easy for sone people to do, sure. But others have tried and failed their whole lives, gotten nothing but rejection. How are those guys supposed to be confident?

Keep trying. Lots of incels get rejected a few times then give up. Even the hottest guys get rejected. Just keep trying. 10000 rejections and 1 success is still a success.

That's what I said before, that if I could just manage to find one person willing to be with me for who I am, that I could start improving my opinion of myself. But apparently that's selfish, and uncaring about that partner, and unhealthy to put my self esteem on someone else. Was told as long as I believe someone else could fix me, I don't deserve a chance. And honestly, I guess I don't.
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SSJCAT posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

SSJCAT posted...

i see ugly guys with beautiful women all day every single day. yall are creating your own problems.
get some confidence, be a friendly and interesting person, and girls will respond to a persons vibe and energy much more than their looks.
from my experience, men are much more shallow than women are.
quit being a whiny bitch and get laid

That's easy for sone people to do, sure. But others have tried and failed their whole lives, gotten nothing but rejection. How are those guys supposed to be confident?

i would say it is your vibe that is turning people away. no one wants to be with a moper who just thinks why try when it always just leads to rejection. i mean you have to see that it is your attitude alone that keeps you from succeeding, not the women.

I don't have this attitude in real life, the only place I have that I can talk about this stuff is here. So you guys get all the pent up frustrations that have been building up over the decades.

Also, I don't blame anyone but myself. But it still doesn't change the fact that even when I do try, it fails. I'm just not worth the effort, and they seem to know that. Then I see like 20 posts on here everyday about how easy it is for everyone else, or people like me being mocked/insulted. It's just incredibly frustrating.
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DevsBro posted...

They have restraint, which is a good thing.

This reasoning bothers me a bit. It's very similar to saying everyone has had the opportunity, but turned it down, when many never had a chance to begin with.
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SSJCAT posted...

i see ugly guys with beautiful women all day every single day. yall are creating your own problems.
get some confidence, be a friendly and interesting person, and girls will respond to a persons vibe and energy much more than their looks.
from my experience, men are much more shallow than women are.
quit being a whiny bitch and get laid

That's easy for sone people to do, sure. But others have tried and failed their whole lives, gotten nothing but rejection. How are those guys supposed to be confident?
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I started playing again yesterday after a few months long break. I'm rusty again, and failed the Behemoth Quest.
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8.5
>.>
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Grass, trees, and eyes.
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Like an hour, but it was a compilation of other videos.
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I've gotta be pretty close.
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Orlando_Jordan posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

It wouldn't make any difference if I were.

That's not true.

Every time I thought someone was interested, I was wrong. When I was interested, they weren't. I'm worthless as a person, there's no reason anyone would ever want to be with me. I'm such a piece of shit that I shouldn't date even if I somehow miraculously got the opportunity. I'm just not worth it, and everyone knows that.
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Orlando_Jordan posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

Lmao, no, of course not. Why would anyone ever want to be with me? They wouldn't, and that's just how it is.

Your post shows a lack of confidence. As shallow as it is, women prefer confident men. It's just how it is.

It wouldn't make any difference if I were.
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Lmao, no, of course not. Why would anyone ever want to be with me? They wouldn't, and that's just how it is.
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Pft, no.
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35.
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Orlando_Jordan posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

This. I'm such an irredeemable piece of s***, I've got no chance with anyone.

What about a chubby/fat girl? A girl with 3 kids from 3 different dads? Or a crazy girl?

I don't mind chubby or fat women. Also, I like kids and want my own, I'd be fine if she had kids, but 3 from 3 different guys might be a bit much to take on. The problem is they wouldn't even give me a chance.
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None.
My dad's father was murdered before I was born. Killed in a robbery at a gas station,
His mother died a few years ago on Christmas Eve of a severe illness.

My mom's father died of aneurism when I was 16.
Her mother died 5 years ago due to kidney failure from an untreated infection.
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I want kids so bad, but I don't think I'll ever have any.
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DarthAragorn posted...

teepan95 posted...

andel posted...

if dawkins can get a committed girlfriend there is hope for any ceman tbh

the thought that keeps me going

If anything that just depresses me more

Like what's wrong with me

This. I'm such an irredeemable piece of shit, I've got no chance with anyone.
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DarthAragorn posted...

And you know it's all on you

This is me too. I've brought it on myself, and just makes me hate myself even more.
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Head on collision my family was in when I was 9. Happened on the 4th of July, the guys in the other vehicle had been up partying all night long. Right when we crested a hill going full speed(55 iirc) a huge van also going full speed swerves into our lane. Full head on impact. It demolished our vehicle. I remember being flung toward so hard that I was in the air for what felt like seconds, my seatbelt is the only thing stopped me from going through the windshield, or into the dashboard between my parents.

The scariest part was after, when I looked up to see my mom unconscious in the front seat, I thought she was dead. Looked next to me to see my brother, with a massive knit on his forehead with blood pouring out. I literally thought it was his brains coming out from the size of the wound and the way he was slumped over. I was completely in shock, and stunned, sitting in the middle of all this wreckage. My dad got out of the car and walked away, my one cousin was with us that day, she was shrieking bloody murder.

Some bystanders got us all out of the vehicle, and the ambulances finally arrived. I was sitting on the guard rail next to my brother as the emt was working on him, he ended up being airlifted to a distant hospital because his injuries were so critical. My dad and cousin went in one ambulance. I saw my mom get loaded onto the last one and it pulled off... A police officer walked by and told me to go back to my parents. I told him they were taken by the ambulances, and he quickly called them back. They weren't too happy about having to come back for me. I rode to the hospital with my semi-conscious mom, she doesn't remember any of it, but I kept telling her I loved her and not to die, and she just talked nonsense back to me.

As it turns out, I was the one who was injured the most. The seatbelt that caught me from being thrown had hit with such an impact that it severed my intestines and impacted my spine. The emt guys told the hospital I was unharmed, and I went untreated. Which led to the most excruciatingly painful week of my life, as I ended up developing gangrene in my intestines and was hours from death by the time I was actually treated like a week later.

Everyone mostly made full recoveries. I still deal with back issues and nerve damage, and occasional intense intestinal pain from the scar tissue causing them to twist up and pinch on themselves. Mom has some nerve damage too, but otherwise no lasting injuries. But dang, the visual of them, especially my brother's head. I try not to think about it.
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DarkTransient posted...

I hear quite a lot of gunshots here. Rural area, it's hunters and sport shooters.

What he said. Sometimes people just go outside and shoot out of boredom.
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No. Just my mom, and that's not to any meaningful degree. She couldn't care less about me as a person, it's more about her status as a mother I guess. Hard to put it into words exactly.

Edit: If I were to drop dead right now, she'd be the only one bothered by it though.
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Well, I've had jobs before, so...
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Yeah, the night my dad tried to kill me. Then at my last job when a guy was having a heart attack in the parking lot. Then at my current job when a lady wouldn't wake up, turned out to be a diabetic coma.
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The times I seriously felt like doing that was because I felt worthless, unloved, and unwanted. So it seems obvious that the company of a caring person would help, but it really doesn't. It might serve as a temporary solution, but they'll just circle back to thinking it's only a matter of time until you abandon them too, or that you don't know the real person and if you get closer it'll just hurt you both.

It's going to be a big investment to commit to. That person will need a lot from you, especially if you're the only source of companionship in their life.They might get upset or scared and try pushing you away. Sometimes, even with a support network, things fail anyway.
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Mission success, new toothbrush acquired! It's a bit surprising just how smooth my teeth feel now after a day of not brushing.

GanglyKhan posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

I don't know what any of that is, and never been a big donkey kong fan or anything. I do recognize those usernames, but I haven't been a part of anything special with them.

Probably saw you on the 3DS board often enough a while ago in that case.

That's probably it, I spent a ton of time on that board a few years ago.
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Yes.
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GanglyKhan posted...

@KogaSteelfang posted...

Now I have not so great breath though, trying to mask it with coffee lol.

Coffee breath is just as bad!

Also, your username is super familiar. Were you part of the NDF/Donkey Kong FDS board shenanigans with Nintendogger and pikachupwnge and all those people?

I don't know what any of that is, and never been a big donkey kong fan or anything. I do recognize those usernames, but I haven't been a part of anything special with them.

SunWuKung420 posted...

Seriously, cleaning off your deodorant stick is a bit much.

I'm just a wee bit of a germophobe, not full fledged, just I get grossed out easily by stuff like that. I'll clean it off after I use it myself. But just the thought of him rubbing it in his sweaty underarms then leaving it for me, nah, can't do it.
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frogman_295 posted...

KogaSteelfang posted...

I'm not ugly, but I am entirely undesirable. Is that close enough?

yes. yes it does.

Then I guess about 3-4 years ago when I realized how common it was for everyone else on this site to get dates, find a gf, have someone interested in them, or simply be physically intimate with someone. Now I'm 35 and have had none of that.
Looks do nothing for someone like me.
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TheGreatNoodles posted...

Bleh.

I'd definitely not be okay with this.

Get a new brush, hide the brush, don't ever reveal the brush's existence.

Definitely. They usually have some for sale here at work, but they're all gone. >_<
Was gonna grab one on my way out in a couple hours, but I guess not.

Also, I haven't seen you around for a while, I hope all is well.
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I have t seen it.
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Luckily I found out before I was going to brush mine for work. Now I have not so great breath though, trying to mask it with coffee lol.
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Bugmeat posted...

Get a new one. Keep it hidden. Leave the old one where it is and occasionally rub it in the crack of your ass in case he is still using it.

I suspect he was using my deodorant too. I always make sure it's clean after I swipe it on, and then I found a hair on it that I'm certain didn't come from me. I scraped the top layer off and have it in my room now. His stick has since gone untouched as far as I can tell. >_>

mooreandrew58 posted...

Yeah definitely don't hit him then lol.

I rough house with him a lot, so he gets "hit" often enough. Mostly just playful jabs or slaps, or a bear hug.
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StoneRevolver posted...

Ew. Just ew. Not okay.

Seriously, it's disgusting.

mooreandrew58 posted...

Well I'd tell him it's his now but he owes you a new one. Had this happen to friend once and the guy who used his toothbrush had some transmittable disease. Family or not I think that would have prompted me to punch someone. (The case where he had the disease)

I'm just going to buy a new one and keep it in my room instead of the bathroom. My cousin is mentally handicapped though, so it's not like he did it on purpose. Still, doesn't help though.

wwinterj25 posted...

Time for a new cousin.

Heh. :)
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I feel violated. I get sick on my stomach to think about it. Just... Ugh!
Edit: Found out earlier tonight.
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Nominate myself as well.
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I'm not ugly, but I am entirely undesirable. Is that close enough?
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That sounds really nice though.
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Insecurity and no self esteem.
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I know the feeling.
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Trickfinger posted...

lol, if anything attractive men without game are left even further on the totem pole cause they don't fit women's preconceived notions of having game.

This so much. It sucks. It makes you feel unwanted, and drops self esteem by a huge factor. It simply kills confidence altogether.
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21WIVES_CHILL posted...

Ive always thought good looking guys can get laid without much interaction or if theyre anti-social.

Nope.
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Ha, had one in the cart waiting, hit refresh at 12 and a guest came to the desk and needed me to help. Needless to say it was gone by the time I got back lol. Oh well.
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