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TuxedoCyan posted...

I've gone my entire life with zero self confidence and disdain for even living. I do not value myself as a person. I get what you are saying but nothing is ever going to change for me. I can't take a step forward if I refuse to move to begin with. I've talked to hundreds of people online about my situation and not one person has been able to help me, because I don't want to be helped.

I doubt I post often enough for people to know me from Adam, much less care for my opinions, but posts like this are why I'm often more than a bit nasty towards people who don't fit my criteria for "standard person". The other replies you've received are nothing but encouraging, but you've more or less admitted that it doesn't matter, because you're still going to hide away from the world.

Anxiety and other conditions can be a barrier, I know from experience, but there's nothing so special about you that you can't live something close to an ordinary life if you were willing to try for it. It would take time, but it's achievable.

Having known people with similar conditions in real life, and I am trying to be as kind as I can be whilst still being honest, I feel there comes a point where it stops being a condition that serves as an extra hurdle and starts being an issue with your personality in general.

An ordinary life was never lost to you and you can start anytime you like.