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KogaSteelfang posted...

Must be nice to know you're wanted. That people look at you and see a partner. Someone who makes them comfortable enough to share a night with, and provide and receive intimacy.

Maybe it's something I take for granted, but I'd say it isn't all that cracked up to be. Having the interest of someone you don't feel the same way about isn't all that great of a situation to be in. Or at least it isn't where as far as I'm concerned. Seeing people break in front of you isn't an enjoyable experience and one I wouldn't wish on anyone on either side of it.

KogaSteelfang posted...

My only option would be paying someone to fake that. I'd know it. I'd know that they didn't want to be with me. I'd know they're just faking for money. I'd know that I'd be the one putting them into a position where they have to pretend and be with someone they don't to be. For what? For money and my own gratification? I can't do that, man. I feel like that would be far more damaging to me than just staying a virgin.

If you feel that way, that's what you need to do. Like I said, smashing genitals isn't as great as movies would have you believe. Just like relationships in general, whether they be romantic or not, the majority range from mundane and/or inconsequential to negative. It's just those lucky few instances where you actually get that click which connects you on another level. I've only had that click in my teens once romantically speaking.

KogaSteelfang posted...

Sure, sure... That's totally something I can do. Just like getting dates and having sex. Just like getting a billion dollars and inheriting a castle. It's all so easy.

You can. It starts by opening up, the very thing you've been doing this entire time. I know it doesn't account for much from a random screenname online, but you're trying. That's a lot more than many do, just comfortable wallowing in their own self-pity.

In the end, don't take my word as gospel or anything. I'm just some random person online sharing his experiences and believing himself to be every bit as broken as you do. Just in a different way.