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I will add the man who played the father role in my life I did love. He wasn't the best at playing father figure but I don't think he was trying. It was my grandad and he had already raised his own siblings (dad stayed at bar and his mother would go too cuase she was afraid of him cheating.) And then my mom so I guess he was tired at that point and fairly so.

But he was always there when needed. I could be in a spot of trouble or just sketched out by a situation one phone call and he was there.

He was a little bigoted (I say little cause he'd say shit but through actions wouldn't show it) and I am bi who prefers guys so that could be rough hearing him say shit like f*****s should be drug out into the street and be shot.

But towards the end I never came out but I stopped trying so hard to hide it. Brought several gay guys over and would openly talk about our night before at the gay club. Well when his health went to shit and he was dying I became the one who took care of him meanwhile my straight brother wouldn't lift a finger to help. He eventually told me he loved me and I couldn't recall the last time I heard him say that. So I'm hoping I changed his perspective even if it was little too late.

Funny story on bringing a particular gay guy over though. I told my grandad I was bringing someone over and decided to tell him he would like this guy cause he didn't drink drug or get into any kinda trouble and his response? Must be a f****t and I just walked off saying I can't win with you. He hated my straight friends cause they did all that stuff lol

That said he did tell me when I was young just because a guy is gay doesn't mean he ain't a man. Then told me a story of where he assaulted a gay guy and got his ass whipped. And my grandad could scrap he was a black belt and a boxing champ in high-school.