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KanWan posted...

I have terrible nightmares if I sleep in such a way that creates soreness for my body. If I could Id sleep on my side with one arm under my pillow, but some nightmares are so extreme that I say to myself its absolutely not worth it. The other day I was just so fucking sleepy that I didnt think twice about sleeping this particular way.

I woke up inside of this really dark and sickly looking house made out of logs that had this dark purpleish tint of atmosphere and I could hear voices around. I felt this jolt of constant pain that felt like I was being straight up tortured and all I could see was an image of my back with this white wire leading up to some sort of white node with a light. The pain felt so fucking real that I was straight up panicking in my dream. It was this really directed part inside of my kidney that just felt like was sizzling or being punctured. It felt like I was undergoing a minute of this before somehow I was just walking past doors into the kitchen where somehow some face I totally feared brought me back to what I could only rationalize as the room where they were torturing me.

I was begging them to stop in my mind because I couldnt make a sound from my mouth through the jolt. I could see where the white wire was coming from and apparently, it was being discharged from my Miyoo Mini+ lol.

Another node appeared on the image of my back while I felt like my body was jerking around not being able to see anything but that. At one point I tried to wake up within the dream but I couldnt. I somehow appeared by a door leading outward and I could just feel like somehow my worst fear of having to go back into that room with the wires was being realized. I saw an image of myself in my pillow breathing heavily, but it was a fading image crossed over into my dream. A third node appeared and I just felt like I was crying in the dream.. It felt like each time I was put to a longer length of time. Eventually I snapped out of it and felt this really raw feeling of soreness in the joint of my shoulder and this stiffness in the area of my kidney.

Fucking weird.

I found out that I sometimes cry in my dreams. Actual tears and yet it is very unlikely I cry when awake.

I wish I could remember those dreams. I just get the sensation something horrible is happening and I can see myself saying "no!" or something and I wake up feeling like I was crying. I actually felt tears before.

I sometimes have similar dreams about suddenly being in a situation I would never want to be in. Lke suddenly forgetting that I am driving something. Then slamming the breaks. Then waking up like oh shit I am going to end up in prison.

One time my friend who isn't from the US came to visit and see a bit of the place. Neither of us even speaks the same language outside of small phrases and use translation apps for the most part (modern ones are great btw). In the middle of the night, she woke me up and told me she felt very sick and something is wrong. She felt very warm and was miserable with her hands on her stomach shivering. I decided we had to go to Urgent Care. Our "dynamic" made for an awkward situation and I felt like they suspected me of something. Nothing crazy happened other than them asking for explanations and a strange vibe. Regardless that night scared the living hell out of me. I had no clue what they thought.Then If something did happen I couldn't contact anyone on her behalf. Thankfully it was nothing serious. EIther way I was freaked tf out.

I have dreams about that night every now and then. Not about anything that happened but about what I was afraid COULD happen.