I think it's more likely that I'm some form of asexual. I'm not ruling out being bi, but I've never been sexually attracted to anyone, man or woman. I have developed crushes on people after getting to know them, which I think is demisexual, but even then it was just wanting to spend more time with them and enjoying their company and such. Idk... I've just never actually felt that kind of attraction to anyone.
It does bother me to still be a virgin, but it's less about sex and more about being unwanted. About not being able to attract anyone myself. I'm lonely and want a family, or at least to experience something with someone I care for and they care about me. But that seems impossible.
I've been doing much less of that than I used to. But I'm feeling really depressed lately, and I was dumb enough to click this topic out of curiosity. I've actually been significantly better in recent years, still not good, but not drowning in self hate and pity like before. I'm just indulging those feelings for a bit here since it seems relevant at the moment.
There's a picture of me in the topic asking to post a pic of yourself. It's over a year old but it's the most recent pic I have.
I might be able to help if you don't mind me PMing you. I can show you part of what saved me but it has to be in PM.