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Not putting it in the title

Brother called me, told me stepdad (who was basically my dad growing up) is under investigation for taking videos of kids. It is pretty new and my brother couldnt get into the details.

Im. Kind of lost right now. He was always a violent asshole when I was young. He targeted me a lot, and would scare the crap out of me, hit me, and other violent acts. I dont remember anything sexual, but I always felt there was something weird behind it. Im worried ive blocked something out, because there were signs that something was going on with him. My mom had even asked me before if he had done anything to me. His whole family is full of weirdo alt-righters, and even some extreme hippies too. Im remembering more and more weird stuff growing up, and it sadly makes sense.

Im a teacher. I knew i grew up abused, and i never wanted to lead by force and always tried to listen and learn before acting.

I really hated him growing up. I remember one of the last things he ever did before he got divorced, was throwing me down on the ground and threatening me, i think hitting me, because i was teasing my brother (his son).

my other brother grew up violent, alcoholic, and cant get his life together. My other brother is a little weird too.

im ranting now, but i literally feel sick and i hate knowing that he has been doing this, and maybe even did it to me or my family. I hate him so much. He has manipulated me and made me hate myself as a kid, i dont even know what to think now, so i will stop.