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I am so fucking unhappy with this job that I don't even know where to begin. This is year 4 for me, and I cannot do this for another 26.

I never wanted to be a teacher, didn't study education. I studied English - Professional Writing, and minored in Film Studies and Journalism. Was a journalist for a bit, but I made like $25,000 a year and it just wasn't worth it despite it being a fun job.

I was hired at my school because they specifically wanted a male English teacher and I was the only applicant, and I was contracted for 10 months (then) for $38,000. I now make $47,000 for 10 months, and then I help run a summer camp in California to supplement that to right around $51,000 a year.

It used to be fun. But now, there are no consequences for kids, there's no professionalism, the catty nonsense of being the only dude in an English department with 13 women, we're severely understaffed to the point where I have an honors class of 37 students and an inclusion class (kids with IEPs/504s) of 33. My inclusion class also has an autistic student in it, and over half the class is EC, so I'm technically illegally teaching a special education class at the moment as I'm not certified for special ed.

The biggest thing though - I'm going through it mentally and emotionally myself to the point where it's hard for me to be there for my students. My grandma (who raised me) died on July 30 from lung cancer. My dad also has terminal cancer and isn't expected to live much longer.

I have right around $50,000 to my name if you include all my savings.

I'm really thinking about throwing my keys down and walking away. I'm just scared because I've had such poor luck with job searches. Shit, recently, I've had two different offers and both of them were rescinded because it looks like we're heading towards a recession.

I have an interview on Thursday for a Digital Content Producer role at an arts school, so I'm hoping that works out as it's more money and back to more media stuff instead of teaching.

But man, I'm so heavily medicated from all the stress, depression, anxiety, that I just don't care about anything now.

Love you, CE. Thanks for reading if you made it.