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Ex girlfriend once woke me up holding a knife over my body. When she calmed down, her reasoning was because I wanted to see what it would be like. Turned out she was a weirdo neo nazi who had huge drug abuse problems.

Dad disappeared when I was young, and resurfaced after he heard i graduated college. My brother found out before, and tried to warn me about him. He tried using me for some dumb grifts. When I asked him why he disappeared when we were kids, he said I felt like it.

I grew up in a church my whole life, and believed in it. Then i started noticing that the things they taught me were slowly changing over the years, and they contradicted other things they taught. When i questioned it, they told me i was thinking too hard and gave me weaksauce excuses. They always told us to never listen to negative things about the church, because that was the devil trying to control us. When I decided to ask outside sources, i was shown just plain history about how that church had a well. History of manipulating and lying. Keep in mind, i was in this since birth. It shaped my worldview. I tried making excuses and ignoring what I learned, and telling them about it and trying to find reasons, but they slowly ignored me. Then pretended to be buddies with me, but really just wanted to know if i was still in the church. Then they never said anything. I felt so alone. My family was in that church. My support circle was there. I was in a foreign country when this happened too, so I had ZERO support.all i could do was listen to podcats from other people who found out like i did. I found a bunch of nasty secrets out. I had to reshape my entire worldview. Thankfully today, I can go days without thinking about it, but.. I also think of the things i missed out on too. But in a weird way, i feel i wouldnt be who i was today without it, but maybe it was just me who chose to be that way in the first place?