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| Topic | Have you ever wished for someone's death and they actually died? |
| Seitar 03/24/18 8:57:19 PM #20: | HeyPuff posted... Seitar posted...HeyPuff posted...Seitar posted...No but a girl I bullied in middle school (I did it because I was a stupid kid and didn't know how to act out my crush on her) got tortured, killed and chopped into pieces around 15 years later. Not good, I hadn't seen her in like 13 years but the whole thing struck too close for comfort. I started teasing her because she thought I looked lonely and she would "pester" me by sitting next to me and talking to me when I was sitting by my lonesome playing Gameboy in the halls of school and she was cute and stuff so I didn't know what to do really. I cooled down and stopped the bullying by the time we started high school and we became sort of friends but after high school I would from time to time think about the stuff I said to her (like mock her for her red hair and freckles, despite the fact that I've always liked that look) and the fact that I never truly apologized to her used to haunt me. Her mother used to frequent the same functions in town that I volunteer at and for the past five years or so I had told her that if Kim was around I would like to talk to her but she was always out of the country. And I know I could and probably should have done it online but didn't want to send an email or facebook message, I wanted to say it in person. I also know I could have looked her up when she was home but I knew all the traveling in her work was kind of heavy on her didn't want to bother her with just something like that unless I happened upon her in town or at a function. But that didn't happen and here I am confessing it on CE of all places. Anyway I kind came to terms with it around december but now everyone around here is talking about the court case both on TV and my old friends and I'm starting to get really stressed out again. Yet at the same time I feel horribly guilty for feeling guilty and sad, it's like I wasn't close enough to her to be allowed to feel the way I do and it all just spirals downward all the time. --- PSN: Seitar-Hubbe ... Copied to Clipboard! |
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