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To me, FFVII was a "milestone" RPG. Many RPGs came before that and after that, but FFVII was one of those timeless classics for me, a game I will never forget. A game that fits the definition of why I love video gaming and RPGs as a whole. The next "milestone" RPG that came after that was Suikoden II, which told a story like no other. FFVII's story was well thought out and developed, with many characters and two main overarching plots that develop into something bigger and a quest to save the world. But Suikoden II told a story about a country's struggle to defend itself from an outside force and the war that erupts within. It told a story filled to the brim with tragedy and other moments that tug on your heartstrings. It was fucking deep and I could not stop playing it. It also teased a much bigger world that I was highly invested in after playing the first two Suikodens. I believe the next milestone RPG was FFX, because of its tight pacing and absolutely fun gameplay.

I loved these moments. I loved this history of RPG'ing. It wasn't something I was ready to forget. That moment I first played a Tales game and realized that action RPGs do actually exist outside of Secret of Mana/Evermore. That moment I played FFT, that moment I bought the newest four-disc game. It's a shame that most of the PS2's life cycle had decent enough RPGs, but nothing at any point EXCEPT for maybe Suikoden V actually wowed me. There were also a few RPG Maker games that had amazing characters and well-crafted storylines. That was the most exciting part for me: Super Mario RPG was unforgettable for me because it was the first game that told a story. After that, I wanted more, and after FFVII and Suikoden II's detailed stories I wanted even more.

I was waiting for that game that would make me fall in love with the genre once more. Mother 3 came and I loved it. Persona 3 had some great moments to it. I liked the Baten Kaitos games too. But really, I yearned for more.

So the year is 2011. It was a dark time for me. I lived on my own in a shabby one bedroom apartment and didn't even make enough money working two jobs to pay rent. I had earned a license in a particular field but had no idea where to even start looking for a job. I spent most of my time indoors and I was extremely depressed. I never wanted to go out, never wanted to meet new people, I just had more fun playing a game or watching a TV show or movie at the time. I self-diagnosed myself with anxiety and depression at the time and also started to smoke. Didn't seem like anything was going right.