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LinksLiege posted...

BloodyNate posted...

it makes me not want to schedule with her anymore, you know? and this has been a problem the entire time ive known her. i need to value my time more.

Yeah, I hear you. I mean if she has legitimate reasons then that's one thing, but even having legitimate reasons doesn't excuse someone from never being able to plan ahead properly. They need to figure out where the issues lie and, if dealing with those isn't an option, they need to learn how to plan around them.

i would say theyre always legitimate to a degree, but theyre almost always avoidable. Friday she double booked herself and opted to reschedule with me rather than her friend. today she slept late and had too many things on her to do list. sometimes its panic attacks, which dont bother me (except to make me concerned about her), but sometimes its other things.

ive turned off notifications for her texts, and i think that will help my sanity. ive also made some new friends recently who i very much enjoy spending time with and who seem to enjoy spending time with me, so that will help. also, my new job will be active enough that i wont have time to think about her, which will help in a big way.

at this point, if she wants me in her life, its her job to show me. my time is valuable, and im going to start treating it as such. if she doesnt live up to that, then ill have to leave her behind.

and, of course, the reason i hate all of this is because when im with her, i am completely and totally happy. but getting to that point is universally a nightmare of anxiety, and i really cant handle it.
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