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benjamin3740 posted...

If that is it all true then why did you fight to keep yourself alive at all? All the way up to the end of day you did. How does the desire to win suddenly go away at that moment?

Because like I said when people kept accusing me of giving up, giving up = not playing to win, and I don't sign up to games just to give myself a chance of undermining the competitive nature of them. Same reason I'm still trying to think about it now, even if my enthusiasm is low - I signed up for this game, and I would be pissed at myself if I didn't put in the effort.

turbopuns2 posted...

I can absolutely see why it would be an enthusiasm drain.

And then the circumstance responsible for the enthusiasm drain was completely and utterly undone. Reversed. Nullified. Lifted.

Yet you remained unenthused?

To the point you are still dejected, have done close to zero pressuring or probing today. You've just mostly answered questions, and you haven't voted even.

And you also defaulted to assuming town blocked you.

I mean, if you're town, sorry bout cha. But can you recognize that every single aspect of your behavior and attitude today is aligned with how scum would feel and act? Like every single part of your play has, in my view, had no distinction from a scum mindset.

Being alive doesn't change the fact that before I knew I would still be alive, I had decided "welp, fucked that one up, time to move on from this". And I have been asking questions and trying to think things through today, I haven't had much time yet today but I was around last night, I'll be around tonight and I'll be playing. People mostly haven't addressed things I've said that don't pertain to myself ever since the train on me started yesterday, and I'd be lying if I said I'm not changing my habits of pressure a little out of the knowledge that until I die, me pushing a lynch will probably make people think that person is less likely to be scum, not more, since the assumption is I'm scum looking to take people down with me.

I defaulted to assuming town blocked me because I'm not a moron <_< Why would scum even bother blocking me? They'd know Eaed probably would do it for them, and even if he didn't a good chunk of the game would assume I was just some sort of scum mason thingy anyway. Absurd to think scum would block me instead of Tony.

The problem with what you're saying is you're assuming that because I'm not super excited, I must be scum. Well, how do you think I would feel as scum here? I would have gotten out of a sure fire lynch, and sure my buddy Leo died but at least I have a chance and based on how the early votes have gone, it would look like a strong effort today could push people to decide to let me test the mason recruit thing out. I'd be hyped...unless, of course, I'm the type of person who would lose a lot of hype over surviving a sure lynch. For this to be my scum mindset requires that it be my town mindset. It's personality, not alignment.
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