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Topic	CE, what kind of parents did you have growing up?
_Lyonidias 12/31/18 1:16:45 PM #17:	My parents were pretty awful growing up. Mother was emotionally and verbally abusive to me. Even told me to go kill myself. I only have one memory of her not constantly being angry and screaming (which brings me to tears even thinking about it; Id give anything for her to be that person today) Never knew if something I said wrong would piss her off; there were many times where I would feel intense fear because I conveyed the wrong tone and she took it as me being disrespectful Blamed me for how she treated me. I remember once she accidentally slammed my leg in a car door and she said it was my fault because I was rude and usually jumped out first. Once when I was little I backed into her lit cigarette and she got mad. Another gem of hers is claiming I wanted a pet to be put down so I could get another one. I was like 10, maybe 11? I was deeply attached to all of my pets (they were all I had) and that stung so bad. Also told my niece ever since she was little that I hated her. Not true at all. They always threatened to put me in juvie which seemed tangible given my father was in law enforcement. I hid my mental illness because they always threatened to have me committed and that scared me so bad - I thought I would never see the outside world if that happened. So I suffered silently. I was also homeschooled, the burden of teaching me lied on my mother so....that was awful. Plus I never got out of the house to make friends and anytime I would complain she would tell me that running errands with them (which was pretty much just going to the store from time to time) was enough socializing. Called me a slut at the age of 14 for talking to boys the same age online (at this point nothing was sexual) I had no privacy until I was like 18. They even removed my door at one point. My father enables her abusiveness. I still live with them and she regularly threatens to kick me out knowing full well I have no where to go and no car at the moment, so i try to hide in my room and avoid her in case I breathe the wrong way (not exaggerating) and she threatens to kick me out. Trying to get out by mid February or so. --- she's a killer queen~ Lyonidiias.sarahah.com <cite>_Lyonidias posted [p:914981166] in CE, what k... [t:77349471]...</cite> <quote>My parents were pretty awful growing up. Mother was emotionally and verbally abusive to me. Even told me to go kill myself. I only have one memory of her not constantly being angry and screaming (which brings me to tears even thinking about it; Id give anything for her to be that person today) Never knew if something I said wrong would piss her off; there were many times where I would feel intense fear because I conveyed the wrong tone and she took it as me being disrespectful Blamed me for how she treated me. I remember once she accidentally slammed my leg in a car door and she said it was my fault because I was rude and usually jumped out first. Once when I was little I backed into her lit cigarette and she got mad. Another gem of hers is claiming I wanted a pet to be put down so I could get another one. I was like 10, maybe 11? I was deeply attached to all of my pets (they were all I had) and that stung so bad. Also told my niece ever since she was little that I hated her. Not true at all. They always threatened to put me in juvie which seemed tangible given my father was in law enforcement. I hid my mental illness because they always threatened to have me committed and that scared me so bad - I thought I would never see the outside world if that happened. So I suffered silently. I was also homeschooled, the burden of teaching me lied on my mother so....that was awful. Plus I never got out of the house to make friends and anytime I would complain she would tell me that running errands with them (which was pretty much just going to the store from time to time) was enough socializing. Called me a slut at the age of 14 for talking to boys the same age online (at this point nothing was sexual) I had no privacy until I was like 18. They even removed my door at one point. My father enables her abusiveness. I still live with them and she regularly threatens to kick me out knowing full well I have no where to go and no car at the moment, so i try to hide in my room and avoid her in case I breathe the wrong way (not exaggerating) and she threatens to kick me out. Trying to get out by mid February or so. --- she's a killer queen~ Lyonidiias.sarahah.com</quote> ... Copied to Clipboard!
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