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ChocoboMog123 posted...

I have had two or three panic attacks in my life, but they were just momentary things that I quickly got over. It was extreme fight-or-flight where I lost all sense of who I was and immediately had to either punch whatever was around me or literally run away. I was hyperventilating, all of my blood rushed to my face, and I couldn't help but to scream. But, an hour later, I was mostly fine.

My SO has had panic attacks so bad that people call 911 (and poorly trained firefighters or police just make it worse). I don't want to go into details, but I'm sure the panic attacks alone have been traumatic.

That sounds about right. Mild ones thankfully don't last very long, but the severe ones are crazy. Symptoms can vary quite a bit, but for me I don't get the physical symptoms much, but I suffer from derealization. It's funny, it makes me wonder if H.P. Lovecraft suffered from Panic Attacks and Derealization, because the way he describes people mentally breaking down and the sense of undefinable "wrongness" they experience (Separate from all the monster shenanigans and whatnot) resonates pretty strongly with my symptoms for panic attacks.

It always lingered with me, like I peaked behind the vale of our consciousness and saw just how fragile and meaningless it all is. I try not to dwell on it because it's not particularly productive thinking (i.e. it makes me want to freak the fuck out), but that feeling will always be in the back of my brain, I suspect, wrapped tightly around some cortex responsible for fear and panic.

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