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deoxxys posted...

You need to let yourself relax some, you're gunna kill yourself just from the stress. I know that is easier said then done, but maybe try thinking of a happy place when you find yourself hopeless.

I have sometimes have to remove myself from my mental situation and ask myself what good im doing myself by however it is I am reacting.

Saying something because I care, not because I'm trying to nag you or something, okay?

Yeah...whelp, just back from the pysch ward of the hospital. Glad to be out of that hellish nightmare. Lost 3 lbs in 2 days and got a total of half an hour of sleep. Also got to hear some pretty depressing things happen around me like a mom whose daughter died a few rooms down crying and people begging to die. Pro tip, don't go the ER for feeling suicidal unless you 100% have to and aren't physically ill.

Had an adverse reaction to some electrolyte powder which made me feel acutely suicidal. Very odd effect. Was terrying and was hoping to just be locked down for a few hours until it wore off. That's not how the process works. Oh well, was a strong mental reset I guess. Of course, the hospital has some corona patients too so hopefully I don't get that. My hand somehow ended up cut up/raw. I'm thinking it's from the soap because the automatic sink they have there is both freezing and terrible so you can never really finish washing off but better that than not sure soap at the ER. Lasts for like 1 second. My mom came in at one point and screamed at one of the nurses. Never seen her do that before, she's like the chillest person ever.

They weren't respecting my very restricted diet because I don't have a diagnosis but after being screamed at they actually changed their tune even though I was still half starved as indicated by losing 3 lbs. They sent me to a psych hospital eventually as is the law and thank fucking god the guy there talked me for like 2 minutes and was like "yeah, I think they messed up, no reason for you to be here" and let me leave but not before some other patient came in to warn me about the new world government and ask me if I was a freelancer or worked for google. I was panicking so hard waiting to get picked up for like 2 hours but did my absolute best to hide it so they didn't have some reason to take me back. They also didn't respect my diet and said I could only sleep at bed time despite already being up for like 34 hours at that point on very little food. I feel like I died and was headed to hell but someone was like "oh wait, my bad, go back to earth". The facility itself felt kind of like a sweatshop made out of an old school building with narrow halls and rooms.

Afterwards went to my aunt's house cause it was closer and slept hard for about 8 hours. I was nearly passing out on my feet. Just now got back home and settled in.

Only ended up missing one appointment and got it rescheduled for friday so I didn't lose TOO much time.

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