Get jacked fam! I hope it's easy for you to get the reservations you want.
Not really any point in deprecating yourself like this, it's enough to say that you are unhappy with the state of your health. If you are experiencing health complications and subsequent anxieties from your lifestyle, that sounds like the best motivator in the world to me.
I would look at myself and I just couldn't be happy. I never smiled, in fact I couldn't actually even clear my top teeth with my lip because my cheeks were so colossal. I would look at myself and think that everyone else thought I was the ugliest person in the world, but the truth was that only I truly felt that way. All the way into my bones I hated myself more than anything, and I couldn't stand that feeling anymore. I either had to take initiative and do this so I could become someone that I could stand to be, or I would have just let myself die.
You can do this dude, it gets so easy after the first month that you'll be tempted to beat yourself up for not doing it sooner, but don't fall into that trap because, the past is gone and there's only now and forward from here. I believe in your ability to make the changes you need to take control of your life again, and we'll be here to support you the whole way.
Amazing post. Love you bro.
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In this world, is the destiny of man controlled by some transcendental entity or law? Is it like the hand of God hovering above?