I could never even see a future for myself until this year.
How come? (If you're up for sharing, of course)
Pseudomenon posted... Poverty, abuse, neglect, and other things leading to depression and anxiety at an early age. I waffled between thinking I was going to die young from something I couldn't control and being absolutely certain I'd kill myself before long. I wouldn't say I have "good" mental health at this point but I'm way better these days and don't have those problems, so it's pretty weird and a bit unbelievable that I lived my life like that for so long smh.
I'm sorry. I had depression for a number of years myself, but my homelife wasn't really all that bad. Living on your own now, I'd hope? Or at least, away from that situation?
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Dreamscissors posted...
That's true. I guess I always wanted to make things creatively (I started recording music and writing lyrics as a young kid but got seriously interested in it from age 13) and I can do that now without lots of money and at my own pace where I can take long breaks if my health gets extra crappy.
Bit off topic but we've spoke about it before so thought I'd tell you I'm starting to feel more comfortable about who I am, got to talking with my fiancee about my feelings on gender and established that I don't identify with being a man or a woman and that's fine. They're going to help me with expressing myself, going to look for some less masculine clothes and help me with anything new I want to try. It's really been a weight off my mind.
Yay, I'm happy for you! I think that should help a lot to be honest. Wish you and your family the best.
Cleo_II posted...
Mostly. I thought Id be an engineer but I ended up hating it. But I still have achieved most things I wanted for myself. Married to a good man, have a good job and income, moved to Southern California (that was always my dream as a kid), own a home. Only thing I didnt anticipate was not being able to have children naturally. But Ive been blessed otherwise.
That sounds nice. I've always wanted to see the east coast at some point. My grandparents used to live in Washington, so I've been there and Oregon before, but never the ocean. I'm kinda in the same boat as far as kids go, but really just because I'm trans and I don't have the ability anymore. I'm hoping one day I'll have the chance to adopt, but it still feels pretty far out.