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TopicI'm so sick of being fat and hating my body...
joe40001
10/11/20 10:00:10 PM
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Colorahdo posted...
he's just here to convince himself that he can't do it, he doesn't actually want help

I think I'm looking for the perfect series of words that can "deprogram" me from the few toxic beliefs that are really holding me back.

Like I said, if I could allow myself to like myself and feel good after every 10lbs lost, I think I could sustain the effort indefinitely.

But something in my brain says "it doesn't matter".

It might be as simple as I don't want to entertain the idea that I could get all the way better now, because that means I could've got all the way better before, and the amount of sadness and regret that would come from that conclusion might be unbearable.

Then again, it could be the case that I didn't have the tools to be good up until this very moment, so I wouldn't need to feel guilt if I did get better...

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