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blu posted...

I can fill my time with whatevs.

That does sound like something I very much want to be doing. I also very much just want to move and get a place of my own, and a job and such. That's the only tangible dream I really have. I do not really have the important things figured out: location, nature of the work to pursue, and what I will be doing in the present-day order to inch myself further to this vague dream of mine. But I do not have a career figured out yet, and I've no idea of the sort of steps I should be taking in order to advance a career I have not figured out yet. This sounds a bit silly in hindsight, and it does seem like I stress out too often about neglecting to do the latter. All the same, it is difficult for me to learn what sort of work I'd enjoy. Using the parachute method provides little insight about the career I might enjoy, in addition to making me feel worse about myself. Aptitude tests rarely give me any results that I show the slightest interest in. I am just so disinterested in life, nowadays, that any career that I might have found interesting a few years ago, just looks like sequence of meaningless words on a computer screen right now. I have trouble maintaining focus when reading a book for similar reasons. In short, I am feeling helpless at the mo', without a clue as to where next I must--or rather want to--go.

JOExHIGASHI posted...

video games

I always feel unproductive whenever I do this. I feel like any time spent on this could be spent trying to find work; recent happenings in my life have depleted my savings considerably, and I interpret this as a sign that I should have been taking my job-searching more seriously this year. Yet, after figuratively combing through job advertisements that ask for qualifications I do not have--the chief qualification, of course, being existent social skills--I cannot help but feel dispirited.

JOExHIGASHI posted...

movies

I've lost most of my interest in fictional works. I find myself hating others discussing them for this very reason.

Ogurisama posted...

Travel

Any money I use on travel, in my view, should be saved for relocation expenses. I cannot emphasize enough that I utterly despise this state and its exorbitant living expenses that make it extremely difficult for a person like me, with no experience, no connections, and little hope of securing stable employment, for me to realize my dreams described thus. In any case, though, I don't like this state anyway, for many other reasons I've not discussed here. In any case, I am vehemently opposed to depleting my savings any further than I already have.
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