Virginity isn't my problem. It's the fact that I'm unwanted. I have decades of trauma and abuse built up in my mind telling me that I'm worthless to everyone.
What I want is to be wanted. I want to be loved. Hiring a prostitute would drop a label, and give a new experience, but at the cost of reinforcing the issues that are keeping me alone. I would know she wouldn't want to be with me, I would she's only doing it for money(duh). All I'd get out of that is feeling guilty over having used someone that way, and worse self esteem after. I honestly don't think I'd benefit at all from that situation.
Aside from that option, no other opportunities have occured. All I can think is that I'm not good enough. That I can't compare to other men. The only reason I ever focused so much on being a virgin is because of the sheer number of sex/dating topics that appear daily. It's just a constant reminder that they're better/more desirable than I am. It's what it represents, that those people are desirable and I'm not.
Maybe getting a gf, or hooking up would help adjust that outlook, maybe it wouldn't. Idk, because I've never had the opportunity to find out. I just know that I'd be a bit happier knowing that at some level, someone wanted to be with me.
https://www.reddit.com/r/TheRedPill/ <-- post your story here, copy and paste it if you must. You'll get help from others who have been there, done that, and survived to tell the tale.
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---./|,-``\(o)_\,----,,,_........................Love is like a bottle of gin ---( `\(o),,_/` : o : : :o `-,..............But a bottle of gin is not like love.