Honestly for as long as I remember Ive always worried about something. When I was at university it was am I gonna fail, will I get a job?
When I started working it was am I shit at my job and gonna get fired?
Then when I got my shit together it was am I ever gonna buy this house?
Undercurrent of all of that was am I in a toxic relationship and do I need to get out? Then it was am I ever gonna find a relationship where Im actually happy.
Now Im worried about if Ill be able to buy my next house, is this girl Im talking to too good to be true, am I gonna get too complacent with my 9-5 job and not pursue my ambitions?
Honestly my whole adult life has been one major persistent anxiety after another. I genuinely dont remember what its like to literally have zero worries.
I mean I dont feel sad or bad about anything lately though, just general unease I guess I would say.
youve literally got no worries at all? lol
this is called anxiety
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if i wasn't important, then why would you waste all your poison?