LogFAQs > #903135977

Too many things... For example, today, for some reason my mind keeps replaying this really unpleasant memory about an online experience that I remembered only today on some other site. This memory just gave me lots of anxiety and made me just want to crawl into bed and keep thinking about it until I get used to it. Because I couldn't really concentrate on anything today reliving this experience that I really don't want to talk about... I couldn't even focus on reading through my financial mathematics textbook intended for study by actuaries. Then, while reading that textbook, I felt nervous because I couldn't understand much of what I'd been reading the first time... But I realized then, that during my regular school year, I normally don't comprehend the contents of a textbook the first time I read (skim) through it. It's only through a re-read, that I can finally pay attention to what I'm reading. That's just normal, for me. But I got bored reading halfway through my re-read, then I got worried about my post-college life because if I'm not studying for practice, then I will likely not study when I'm actually going to study for the tests I'm going to be taking. But I just got fatigued thinking about it, and I'm feeling fatigued and sad in general recently, so I ended up watching more television. That was like four hours ago, and I'm still watching television; I'm worried I'm going to end up like that ICOYAR bloke once I graduate if I continue these bad study habits. I mean, if this was a regular week, I would have been at work. But no, yesterday was a holiday for federal workers in this state, so I had the day off. But then I don't have to go to work on Tuesdays, either. So I ended up having little to do since Friday of last week. In short, I hate it when my vacations are too long because I have more idle time to think about the past, how people before used to bother me so often, and it just affects my concentration to do important stuff in the present-day, like study for tests I won't be taking for at least another year. Anyway, this is what's going on in my head, TC.
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Number XII: Larxene.
The Organization's Savage Nymph.