LogFAQs > #912087700

Yes, it was this evil Japanese bastard online who kept insulting me in Japanese when he thought I didn't know what he was saying. Sometimes I did, but sometimes I didn't. But the times I did, I got really hurt because I thought he was my friend. But the truth is, he was an awful, awful human being who only thought of foreigners--or rather me--as nothing but complete imbeciles who were incredibly bad at Japanese. He was condescending beyond all reason, and ignored any signs of me being better than Japanese than he thought I was. Whenever I tried to translate what he was saying on his broadcasts I used to frequent, he'd get really bloody mad and just told me to "stop eavesdropping". All I was doing was try to participate in his Japanese conversation. And he'd always make sure that no other Japanese person was talking to me, either.

He'd always go, "ignore the foreigner", or "don't pay attention to the person posting green text", where green text on Nico Nama meant that a commenter was not from Japan. And one time, he had told his Japanese audience to "not pay attention to the monkey typing Japanese on the broadcast", or in other cases, he'd just straight up call me "the American/foreigner idiot typing Japanese on the broadcast". It was rude and incredibly hurtful, and the fact that he thought I wasn't listening just hurt me even more. If I asked him about what he says, he'd always tell me to not worry about it, or something else to prevent me from figuring out what he's saying. He was always deliberately trying to exclude me from conversations taking place in Japanese because he always thought I was bad. He was always segregating me and the audience watching his streams, so to speak. He would never allow me to interact with them, and he would never allow them to interact with me. If somebody did talk to me, then he'd straight up ban them and warn them in Japanese (so that I would not know) that they can come back, but they wouldn't be allowed to talk to the foreigner.

Once, he had a server that I was a part of for some time. It was over a year ago that I joined. Whenever I tried to type Japanese on his server, he'd always delete it to discourage Japanese people from replying to it, or because he always kept insisting that every single line of Japanese text I have ever typed was copy-pasted from some place. It's just insulting to my intelligence, to have been told this repeatedly by many, many people for over three years. It's like, anything I typed would never be worth it because I would never be given credit for how much Japanese I knew. I mean, I know fully know that I'm not that good in Japanese. But to be insulted in such a manner for so long was an injustice I could abide no longer.

What happened was that I wrote that my Japanese was crap on his Twitch server. Then all of a sudden, this Japanese person posted on the same broadcast. So what he does, is welcome him, and tell him that "the person posting Japanese sentences is an American studying Japanese. Don't pay attentiont to him". I heard the "don't pay attention" part, so I asked him what he meant by that, then asked again after no response. He finally responded "don't mind him". Then I doubted that he could ever be so bad a person, and asked if he meant "don't mind his mistakes in Japanese". But I think I already knew that he was just telling him outright to ignore me. Later on, I hear him telling the bloke why he shouldn't talk to him: "His Japanese is crap. If you practice with him, you won't learn anything". After, I eventually quit his server and stopped attending his broadcasts, then quit another "Japanese-learning" server me and him were a part of.
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Number XII: Larxene.
The Organization's Savage Nymph.