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Firewerx posted...

The only reasons you wouldn't fear it are either that you have nothing to lose, or you're in a statistically low-risk group and it's easy to be brave about a comfortingly distant prospect.

I don't fall into either category, I just understand there's nothing I can do about it. I already deal with sourceless anxiety attacks, why not accept what I can?

I have a loving spouse, a bunch of fur children, and a pretty good family.

I'm pretty useless myself, I'm pretty 'busted' mentally and physically. I'll live as long as I do, and feel bad randomly for it, and then I'll one day die. Doesn't mean I have nothing to lose, I'm always finding reasons to keep going to fight down the depression thoughts.

I had food poisoning for a week bad enough I honestly thought I was going to die, so bad it took me another week to actually recover after getting through actually having it. Had a 104 fever start of the year that basically was like that too. Almost drowned as a kid, lightning struck the road when stepdad/sis/self were coming back from a bike ride. Blinding white, thought I was dead.

I'm surprised between those and some incidents I'd rather not talk about that I'm not dead actually. I've confronted the idea a few times now, I'm past the fear of my own death. I've thought about the effect on others and come to terms with that too.