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Mead posted...

i totally get how that can come across as obnoxious

sometimes I feel maybe I talk about it too much. But the truth is that I love talking about it and learning more about it. Its interesting to me in the way that the sheer size and scale of the universe is interesting to me.

I dont think young people should touch the stuff. But for me, I went through some real shit growing up. A lot of people do. It kinda turned me into an asshole when I was a young man.

Now that Im older, Its been a very useful tool to allow me to self reflect with a clarity that allows me to organize and pack up some of those memories so that Im not loudly dragging them around public spaces wrapped in a dirty bedsheet.

Its helping me learn how to stop worrying for a little while and actually enjoy life.

Good explanation. Its helps me forget about all the horse shit and just watch some YouTube for awhile. Its amazing that I can sit and not worry. I have terrible anxiety that my antidepressants just dont seem to help. Plus, Ive been losing people like crazy the last few years. Mom, both grandmas, mother in law, wifes aunt, wifes grandpa and a couple of pets in the past 4 years. Only one of them, my mom, to covid thankfully, but that is mostly because they were already gone.

Weed does this weird thing where I notice more. Even when Im playing halo or something, I can tell EXACTLY where my grenades are bouncing, my strafe is MUCH harder to predict, and Im just more relaxed while playing. Its like weed slows my brain to where I can concentrate a lil better. Plus, I have more FUN now.

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Grrr