Current Events > I can't handle this

(+) Yeah! (+)

Everything, it's too much. I think I have a depression and I don't have the strength to do anything about it.

I need to study, but I haven't done anything for a week. Just makes everything worse.

I've tried to do physical activity, like yesterday went to do the woods, it helped for that moment. But it's still back to darkness, and I felt like I wasted even more time I could've studied instead.

I can't burden my family so I'm not talking to anyone there, I'm so used to do everything alone and have been able to so but don't know if I can do it anymore.

And before you talk about alcohol I'm not drinking
---

does dick help
---

Eat pizza
---

the_cajun88 posted...

does dick help

hotwheeler89 posted...

Eat pizza

It's really not a good idea to try to solve your depression by fucking and/or eating.
---

the_cajun88 posted...

does dick help

Sex helps but I can't do that all the time. And I don't feel like meeting new people.

hotwheeler89 posted...

Eat pizza

Makes it worse
---

Gamer99z posted...

the_cajun88 posted...

does dick help

hotwheeler89 posted...

Eat pizza

It's really not a good idea to try to solve your depression by fucking and/or eating.

I could just quit everything and only focus on sex, alcohol and food...all of that is comfort but eventually make everything even worse and kill me.
---

I felt like going and buying trash foods, like ice cream, candy, chips whatever and gorge myself. Also go buy alcohol and get drunk.

I fought the urges, and that takes so much time and energy.
---

Iirc you have been studying really hard for some time now, and this is one of your many topics like this. Self destructive drinking, and flipping out and shit.

If you are under stress all the time its just matter of time before you break. Hell, you might get the "work/stress fatigue" or whatever its called where you just feel like you have zero energy all the time.

I also, get a feeling that you feel like you have really strong obligation do everything well, and fucking up is punishable by death or something. I don't see why else you are killing yourself with school overdose.
---

Dis is what happens when you drink too much tbh
---

It's not just school. But it's part of it. It's really complicated, I kinda doubt it's the stress fatigue thing, I'm sure it's depression among things.

And I haven't studied hard, if I had I wouldn't be in this place, started to fall apart last semester after I failed my first exam, only thing I failed this far. I do have insane expectations on myself I know...

I dunno, it's complicated mix of lot of things.
---

So your pissed off at yourself because you're slackin off in school? Quit the boozin and study. That's ALL you have to do.
---

Honestly depression goes beyond life circumstances. What helps the most for me is reframing my situation. Sometimes it's good to try to be objective about oneself.
---

I'm not drinking, I got drunk um like 1-2 weeks ago but I haven't been drinking.

I never drink every day despite everyone thinking so. It's just when I do drink I drink a lot and can't stop myself really.
---

FF_Redux,

I know medical students, residents, and physicians are several times more likely compared to the general population to suffer from depression, anxiety, and suicidal tendencies. Given with the number of people within my class I've spoken to it, around a quarter to a half of my class is probably on some sort of antidepressant, anxiolytic, or stimulant.

I imagine nursing would share some degree of this increased risk due to similar circumstances surrounding the pressure of our schooling and nature of the work.

There is no strategy or empty platitude that will fix this. This requires professional help from a primary care provider or psychiatrist. No real way around it whether its medication, psychotherapy, or a combination of both. I know I myself am starting to show signs of burn out and probably qualify for an episode myself. Highly considering getting an appointment soon. Hopefully you reach out too.

All the best.
---

Soviet_Poland posted...

There is no strategy or empty platitude that will fix this. This requires professional help from a primary care provider or psychiatrist.

I know this is the step I need to take. But I'm afraid, and I don't have the strength to make that call. I just need something to give me the courage and strength. It sounds stupid I know...just do it right. But..I can't.

Funny thing tho, I feel happier when I can work and take care of people, I love my work.. Being away from it is why I think it's making it so hard.
---

I know medical students, residents, and physicians are several times more likely compared to the general population to suffer from depression, anxiety, and suicidal tendencies. Given with the number of people within my class I've spoken to it, around a quarter to a half of my class is probably on some sort of antidepressant, anxiolytic, or stimulant.

I started Prozac in medical school. It can't fix the sense that you've lost your happiness and soul in medicine. It's just a sad, surprisingly thankless, and hostile field that you can never escape.
---

FF_Redux posted...

I know this is the step I need to take. But I'm afraid, and I don't have the strength to make that call. I just need something to give me the courage and strength. It sounds stupid I know...just do it right. But..I can't.

The insidious nature of the disease necessarily lends itself to making you think you don't deserve the help, or otherwise complete lack of motivation to do so. I really wish there was some secret to finding that motivation. All I can do is hope you muster enough to make the call. You don't deserve to go through it, no one does.

Coffeebeanz posted...

I started Prozac in medical school. It can't fix the sense that you've lost your happiness and soul in medicine. It's just a sad, surprisingly thankless, and hostile field that you can never escape.

Whelp, that's depressing. I'm here hoping it's just related to Step 1 prep and financial stress and is mostly transient.
---

Whelp, that's depressing. I'm here hoping it's just related to Step 1 prep and financial stress and is mostly transient

Third year is even worse. Fourth year is amazing, and then residency is basically slavery.
---

FF_Redux posted...

I can't burden my family so I'm not talking to anyone there

Yeah, no, screw your stupid pride.Go talk to them.
---

Soviet_Poland posted...

The insidious nature of the disease necessarily lends itself to making you think you don't deserve the help, or otherwise complete lack of motivation to do so. I really wish there was some secret to finding that motivation. All I can do is hope you muster enough to make the call. You don't deserve to go through it, no one does.

I know, I just...need to do it somehow.

ArchangelBaruch posted...

FF_Redux posted...

I can't burden my family so I'm not talking to anyone there

Yeah, no, screw your stupid pride.Go talk to them.

It's more about they already have so much shit to think about and worry about, I don't want to add to that. And I hate the fact that I'd be causing someone to worry, or using their energy and time to help me. It's not pride, it's I dunno.
---

FF_Redux posted...

It's more about they already have so much s*** to think about and worry about, I don't want to add to that. And I hate the fact that I'd be causing someone to worry, or using their energy and time to help me. It's not pride, it's I dunno.

Imagine how much more they'll worry if your depression spirals out of control and pushes you to suicide.

Just. Talk. To them.
---