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@krazychao5 posted...

Lost_All_Senses posted...

krazychao5 posted...

Nah, just prevents me from doing productive stuff, ya know?

Like studying. Or cleaning. Or going out with people.

Oh, you should take a break then. Im forced to take a break every 3 months for a drug test. The difference in smoking and not smoking isn't that big for me tho since I smoke so lil amounts. The hardest part is the first week. After that I feel like I could take or leave it

Yeah, I've been wanting to cut it out. But like, I can't. When I do, I am worse than being high. Nothing sounds interesting to do and I just literally do nothing.

So instead I try to use it to motivate me to do stuff. Do so and so and then you can smoke later as a reward.

It's not why I am having problems, I think it just exacerbates my issues. I want to quit smoking, my mind just won't let me.

Weed is weird cause it doesn't actually stop you from doing anything you don't have to be drug tested for, but it just tweeks your perspective for the better or worse based off your unique mind. I kind of like quitting every 3 months cause it refreshes my perspective of the differences between when I smoke or don't.
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2015 to mid 2017

abusive relationship, got physically and sexually assaulted, had a breakdown and got brainwashed into thinking I was transgender, spent two weeks in a mental hospital, lost my home, became an alcoholic and a drug addict, acted like a total creep online, alienated myself from my online friends who were helping me keep things together, posted nudes fucking everywhere (big regret), pissed off my family and fell out with them, couldn't be a good enough dad to my child

total hell, now I'm mostly stable and have rebuilt my relationship with my family, have a great bond with my child, no longer abuse any substances, have somewhere to live where I'm safe, cut out all abusive people from my life

this last month and a half probably
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Probably the summer of 2012 where I had just finished a great year of university but ended up becoming a near recluse once I moved back home

Got really into music in that time and was active in a few online communities to that effect but the novelty kinda wore off after about a month. Didn't have a job and some of my closer IRL friends went away for the summer (could've done this but ended up pushing it down the road so much it ended up not really being possible) so didn't have much opportunity to socialise as a result.

Ended up having a great subsequent year in university and I feel it was a useful learning experience but yeah...not great!
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Lost_All_Senses posted...

I have a theory that most early-mid 20s people are depressed. It's when life hits you and you can really start fucking up. As a teenager most of us aren't doing anything more than misdemeanor worthy and we don't even think about the risk of addiction if we're doing drugs. We don't have to think about paying our way for most things.

I think thats fairly common. After college graduation friends move, bills pile up, and youre working for shit tier pay for most degrees youd get. Its often with a decent degree you get $35-$50k but youre working for 50-60hrs a week. Literally comes out to $12-$15 an hour lol.

Had some shitty parts in life and some bad days (friends die, dogs die, shit like that).

The worst was probably May 2018 to August 2018 with a spurt of shitty over the last month or so. Company I was employed by went under leaving me to try and make things work by bouncing and doing odd jobs. Got dicked around with multiple interviews and hearing bullshit after bullshit idk if youre qualified kinda of excuses. I applied at multiple banks asking for a HS diploma and theyre doubting my credibility because I have a biomedical sciences degree and they like to act like I cant count quadruple digit numbers or I dont have cash handling skills because being in track of a cash register with ~$1k in it in highschool 6 years ago or holding a few hundred at the door and not stealing any isnt enough cash handling skills. Fuck that

Not gonna do overnight lab work for $12 an hour nor do I really feel like going to med school.

Cant get a shitty McJob with a degree because they know youll leave without 2 weeks notice in order to not risk homelessness. And theyre right.

Got my fucking car stolen and my lender has me on the hook for it, prob gonna have to file bankruptcy as a big fuck you to them ($1k vs $10k, plus I dont own a house nor will I be able to afford one for a good 5-7 years anyway lol. I also dont have shit to take after growing up broke af and putting myself through college so gg). Bought a shitbox to hold me over and my fucking fuel pump went out

Otherwise things are great.
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EdgeMaster posted...

Lost_All_Senses posted...

I have a theory that most early-mid 20s people are depressed. It's when life hits you and you can really start fucking up. As a teenager most of us aren't doing anything more than misdemeanor worthy and we don't even think about the risk of addiction if we're doing drugs. We don't have to think about paying our way for most things.

I think thats fairly common. After college graduation friends move, bills pile up, and youre working for shit tier pay for most degrees youd get. Its often with a decent degree you get $35-$50k but youre working for 50-60hrs a week. Literally comes out to $12-$15 an hour lol.

Had some shitty parts in life and some bad days (friends die, dogs die, shit like that).

The worst was probably May 2018 to August 2018 with a spurt of shitty over the last month or so. Company I was employed by went under leaving me to try and make things work by bouncing and doing odd jobs. Got dicked around with multiple interviews and hearing bullshit after bullshit idk if youre qualified kinda of excuses. I applied at multiple banks asking for a HS diploma and theyre doubting my credibility because I have a biomedical sciences degree and they like to act like I cant count quadruple digit numbers or I dont have cash handling skills because being in track of a cash register with ~$1k in it in highschool 6 years ago or holding a few hundred at the door and not stealing any isnt enough cash handling skills. Fuck that

Not gonna do overnight lab work for $12 an hour nor do I really feel like going to med school.

Cant get a shitty McJob with a degree because they know youll leave without 2 weeks notice in order to not risk homelessness. And theyre right.

Got my fucking car stolen and my lender has me on the hook for it, prob gonna have to file bankruptcy as a big fuck you to them ($1k vs $10k, plus I dont own a house nor will I be able to afford one for a good 5-7 years anyway lol. I also dont have shit to take after growing up broke af and putting myself through college so gg). Bought a shitbox to hold me over and my fucking fuel pump went out

Otherwise things are great.

Jesus lol
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The one she missed
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SaithSayer posted...

Balrog0 posted...

between the ages of 4 and 13 I was homeless due partially to parental incarceration so that was pretty rough

That makes it sound like they locked your parents up and just ignored you entirely and you lived like Joe Dirt for 9 years. That's a bit hard to believe, man.

yeah I should have said homeless on and off to be fair, though in my defense it's honestly hard to think of the exact timeline to say how much of it was what. In that time frame we didn't live any where that most people would call a home for more than 3 years, and that 3 years 1) wasn't consecutive and 2) wasn't legal so it's kind of a grey area as far as being homeless goes
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2010 - 2018
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RedWhiteBlue posted...

Honestly I'm still on the lowest streak, it just never stops...

This seems like an accurate statement. Each period of my life has been awful, but some for different reasons than others.

Childhood- Physical and mental abuse from parents, and bullying from classmates. Very thoroughly ingrained it into my mind that I'm not worth anything to anybody, and never will be.

Age 9- Car accident and reality setting in. I was severely injured in the accident, had my intestines crushed and severed by the seatbelt catching my across the belly, it impacted my spine giving me back problems and nerve damage throughout my lower torso. I was left untreated by the hospitals and ended up with gangrene in my intestines. I was in excruciating pain constantly, couldn't eat, move, or sleep. I wanted to die just to end the pain. Finally an "exploratory surgery" was done just to check things out and I was rushed to emergency surgery immediately and had a bunch of my guts removed. Was told I wouldn't have survived another day without the surgery. Also learned that my dad was honest about wanting me dead, as he refused to sign the consent form and said to let me die. Luckily my mom signed and he became furious at both of us.

Teenage years- By this point I was a recluse. Never leaving my room, and when I did getting beaten/threatened by my dad for existing. Never being allowed to go out either because he didn't want anyone to see me. I was basically a prisoner. This made me withdraw further from any social contact, I became an outcast in school, and no one wanted anything to do with the kid who never talks. Bullying increased to direct harassment. Depression and anxiety ran rampant, suicidal tendencies developed.

Young adult years- Finally no more school, had some money from the settlement after the previously mentioned car accident. Things were looking up for a change, until I realized I was nothing but a bank account to my family. I had money, so they spent it. When I refused to give money, I'd get a loaded gun shoved in my face or months of mental abuse until I relented. It was easier to just give them what they wanted rather than resist and endure more torment. I ended up completely broke with nothing to show for it, and then more abuse for no longer having money.

Late 20's- Still a shut in, but I live with my brother without my parents. Have a job, and start trying to open up and make friends or a girlfriend. Each failure sends me back into a deep depression of feeling unwanted and worthless. I quit "trying" assuming I'll eventually meet someone and just click with them. Loneliness begins to set in quite heavily.

Early and mid 30's- I start posting on the social boards here on gamefaqs. For the first time in my life I feel like I fit in, people seem to like me, and am getting encouragement for the first in my life. It felt good, I began to open up about my life and let it out. People had compassion, and felt bad for my circumstances. I guess I made a habit of reaching out for help, because those positive things died out quickly. Whenever I'd hesitate to believe anyone actually cared, it'd turn people away. Whenever I was frustrated at myself, others would join in insulting me. Now there's basically no good will left towards me here any more. I've basically stopped posting after ruining the only friendships I've ever had. I guess I didn't realize just how truly awful of a person I am. I said some things out of frustration that I didn't even mean, and it cost me all the good I'd spent years building.

My whole life is a wash, there's nothing to show for any of it and no signs of any of it changing. If I could just stop existing I would. Feels pointless to hope for any happiness in my life. I'm nothing but a joke now to anyone that ever did care, so whatever.
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August 2016-present
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May 2015 - February 2018

Couldn't afford to go to community college

No job would hire me, ended up working with my dad who loathed having me work for him

Girlfriend (before turning 18) was choked by her step dad, we tried to get her out of the house with police involvement but the Child Services deemed that after jailing her step dad, he was still fit to be free and parent because my girlfriend had no evidence.

Me and girlfriend weren't able to see each other for about 7 weeks. Was completely miserable, depressed over the lack of her presence. Even became physically sick and bedridden.

Eventually, she turned 18 and moved in with me and my parents after her mom kicked her out. Girlfriend was around a bad work environment, and one of her ho coworkers became her only friend, which led to her doing a lot of underage drinking.

She was depressed about a lot of things. Mostly her family life, how her real dad never really wanted her, and her mom kicked her out of the house, and now she couldn't even see her sisters. She tried to forget about it with alcohol.

We started fighting, because she was underage drinking and nearing drop out status in High School.

No jobs wanted to hire me, still. Not even seasonal ones.

Girlfriend totaled her car, title was in her parents name, so with her insurance money they turned around and purposely bought her a piece of shit car

We had to deal with that together

I wrecked my car because some idiot turned onto me while I was passing

The money I'd saved for college was now paying for a car to get by in

Girlfriend has self image issues, patches up with an old friend she stopped seeing because she was afraid of her advances on her, and my girlfriend wasn't a lesbian.

Her friend then betrays her trust one night, when, after drinking a couple bottles of wine she convicnes my girlfriend to smoke weed with her, and while my girlfriend is high her piece of shit friend slips her xanax and does things to her while my girlfriend is practically unconscious because "she was in love with her"

My grandma dies

We almost break up because she feels like shes damaged and I deserve better

I get a job finally

We rekindle our relationship to how we felt before all the bullshit with her parents began.

We get new cars

We love each other so much now
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probably when I was around 20.

I was just questioning a lot of stuff in my life, and my cousin died.
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Middle school years.

Almost this entire year has been horrible. I lost my car and my grandpa died early spring. I was hit with a really bad bout of depression I still haven't recovered from. I spent the summer either sad and pissed off or too high to care about anything. I ruined my relationship with my best friend, the only person I've ever been able to really opened up to. And most of my family is mad at me because I've stopped pretending to care about the holidays. At this point I ain't got nothing to offer and nothing I want from anyone, so I'm just working as much as possible, smoking my weed at night, and letting everyone else worry about each other.
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Forgot the exact years but when I was in 7th grade I did absolutely terrible in a lot of my classes. I hated my teachers and other kids around me, and I was kind of a dick. I felt like shit.
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Unknown5uspect posted...

Middle school years.

This, to be honest. It's the time where you feel like your social life is make or break. For me, it was break all the way. I lost all my friends from elementary school, nobody wanted to be around me. I didn't fit in. I'd try to sit at a lunch table and would either get pushed off of it or everyone would literally slide down away from me. I didn't want to be there. I didn't want to even get up in the mornings.