Current Events > It's so difficult to not hurt.

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I can't count how many times I've written something like this and then closed the tab without posting. Even getting to the point that most of them start off with this very line. Maybe today will be different.

Everyone has to carry some weight. While it may be easier for some than others, while some may have less to lug around, we all have to do it. No excuses. And yet... And yet. "Time heals all wounds", is the phrase. "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." But we know neither of these are really true. Wounds can fester. Things can not kill you but leave you physically and mentally weaker. They can crush your spirit. They can make you w- No. What did I just say? No excuses. No deflecting. Get to the heart of the matter. Say what you're really feeling. Attacking a phrase isn't...

I don't want to hurt. The muscles, they ache and atrophy. Joints are stiff. Skin is scarred and bruised. Organs slowly deteriorating. I can't recall the last time I had any energy to get up and go. I guess some time when I was 12? Before the sickness. Before I started to pull away. And that's just the physical. My mind is...

I'm struggling.

It's so silly. It was just a cartoon... But ever since I heard that line. It has repeated in my mind and on my lips every single day. "You are alone, child. There is only darkness for you. And only death for your people." It's funny how something like that can get to you. A line from a little cartoon. But it has only served to highlight the sense of foreboding that had lived within for so long.

What are you expecting?

I'm so tired.

But I can't. My will. My resolve. It must be. I need to. I have to. I can't just hold on. Barely scraping by. I need to be so much stronger. I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to hurt.
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well shit
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i read it to this theme

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King Rial posted...

"You are alone, child. There is only darkness for you. And only death for your people."

well hey now is he alone or does he have people???

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Omnislasher posted...

well hey now is he alone or does he have people???

He was alone in that fight. Up to that point it was believed at he was the only one left alive.
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would help if you explained what was wrong with you