Poll of the Day > This was how today went for me.

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I spent the morning trying over again how to prove that the dimensions of the two vector spaces whose elements are the two arguments of a bilinear form are equal if the two radicals of a bilinear form both consist of only the zero vectors of their respective vector spaces in the form. I also spent that morning trying to fix up my resume which doesn't look all that impressive, in my opinion. Then I started having doubts about who in their right mind would hire someone without much experience, volunteer work, recognitions, or worthy internships that might be indicative of what sort of career I might pursue after graduation. But then I realized that since I can start applying for days off work to interview and the like, that I now have the opportunity to test my luck. I also realized that I don't exactly have the right to complain about my resume being dung until I get a reasonable amount of rejections that imply so. Anyway, I fixed up my resume very slightly, found a job advertisement that might fit into my particular lack of skills. But then I wondered if relocating for work would be all that great an idea. I have at least two crippling disadvantages that would repulse any people who might go through the trouble of seeking me out across the ocean to hire me in their state. First, I have a mental illness that is still in the process of being resolved, and which sometimes interferes with my ability to work properly. I just found a good pschologist I feel I can actually talk to, so to abandon my attempts at being healthy again in lieu of getting out to some distant city with no help and no family to support me would be a poor decision to make, I should think. Second, I cannot drive and thus have no reliable means of transportation, which I feel would be a major factor in being passed over. I was planning on discussing my worries with my psychologist this Thursday, and with my psychiatrist the following Thursday. Overall, it just seems absurd and not a very good and well thought-out idea. At the same time, I am beginning to dislike my current environment, which contributes somewhat to my distress. In any case, this problem of bilinear forms was in my mind for nearly the entire day until I walked back home from where I went at nearly twelve in the PM. In the past few weeks, I had made it a habit to go to my old campus, and find a quiet, secluded spot near the math building to just think, relax, and be away from my troubles and worries. But today, since everyone moved back to their campus dorms this week, there were a lot more people around than in the past few weeks. Today, I just wanted to be alone and didn't really want to talk to or be near anyone due to being nervous and anxious whenever I do so--today, at least. In short, the campus was not as bereft of students or teachers as I would have liked, so I could not have my quiet place to "escape", for the lack of a better word. Additionally, I had forgotten one of my pills at home; the sort of pills that prevent total recall of certain repressed events that cause me great anxiety to relive. So it was then, upon realizing this, that sitting around at campus because I had nothing better to do on a Saturday afternoon was not going to be worth it. So I went to the bus stop, got on, and got off the bus. And, since I did not have the sense to bring my medication, I started to relive this embarrassing string of moments during my last semester that highlight my immaturity and made me remember my embarrassment during those moments. I likely still lack this maturity I envy in others. Anyway, I went home and finally figured out that answer to that fact about bilinear forms and the dimensions of the vector spaces whose elements it maps to a field. It was four in the PM when I had arrived home. My mother told me to print out paychecks for my aunt because the latter does not currently own a computer. So I obliged. Afterwards, I played some Crash Team Racing, watched some television, and here I am. Anyway, how was your Sunday, board?

I must have these answers.
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paragraphs my dude

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*gets crushed by wall of text*

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spikethedevil posted...

wall of text

I have like ten characters left. But I'll see how much material I can remove in order to add paragraphs (which require twelve characters max). Okay, it should be readable now, I think.
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Thats better though multiple posts would have been fine.

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It's always weird how you'll type that gigantic wall of text and then make sure to separate that stupid ass last sentence.

I mostly just cut down on explaining the math problem I had trouble with, which incidentally, initially made up more than three-hundred characters of my post. <<';
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EclairReturns posted...

Sunday

Crap, I forgot yesterday was Saturday. <<
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Mead posted...

paragraphs my dude

spikethedevil posted...

*gets crushed by wall of text*

I thought you guys were joking but I seen the edited thing so I looked at past posts and holy shit lulz.
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