Board 8 > Need some advice (dating)

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Not sure if this is the best place to ask this, but fuck it, it's becoming a problem for me.

So I've been on a bunch of different dating apps for about half a year now. I have never been in a relationship before and I didn't really have the self-confidence to try putting myself out there until recently.

I have not had very much luck though. I met someone on Hinge back in August and that seemed promising but basically all that ended up being was just a hookup. I've gotten a decent amount of matches, but they either don't go anywhere or they never message back in the first place. I find it hard to get excited about new matches now because it's basically just a waiting game of when they're going to stop responding to me. I try to seem as genuine and interesting as possible, but I'm not really sure what I can try doing differently. I don't think my actual profile is the problem if I'm able to get matches, it's just that keeping them around is what I'm struggling with.

The other day I started putting a bucket list together. I don't plan on dying anytime soon, but now that I've had a few years of adulthood I kind of have an idea of what I want to accomplish in my lifetime. I feel like it's sometimes pointless though. I'm pretty happy and content with where I am in life now, and honestly, 2019 was legitimately one of the best years of my life with what I accomplished. It's just that falling in love is like the one thing I'm actually asking for and I feel like I'd be happier if I found someone I could share these experiences with.

I think it's starting to consume me though. I keep checking the apps on my phone every couple of minutes in case I get a new match or a new message. I have plenty of things I can do to keep my mind off of it, but I'm too obsessed and cave in anyway. I know the best thing to do would be to take a break and just focus on myself, but it's just that this has been so important to me lately. There's nothing else I would rather have right now than to be with someone. What should I do?

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