Current Events > I just had a dream the world was ending and it almost cured me of my depression

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Important note, I suffer from depression/disassociation, but in this dream I was associated, I felt like my "younger self".

The dream felt very real. In the dream the world was definitely 100% coming to an end. I was back at my childhood home, and we were just having to make peace with the idea the world was coming to an end. I thought about how people with terminal illnesses feel, and how so many companies and groups and organizations with goals will never get to achieve them, how it's all going to stop. All the beautiful potential that will never be realized.

There was even a point where I stopped by the internet and people were just going crazy. On reddit people had a "let's watch episodes of the office and leave this life laughing together" group topic. Here on GameFAQs somebody had set up a script so that people could post any crazy thing and then if they got modded/banned the topic would just reset. It was a pinned end of the world topic I'm not sure exactly how it worked.

I thought about all my dreams and wants and how I can will never have them. I thought about how I truly loved my family and friends. I had many times in the dream thought "what I wouldn't give for this to all just be a dream", at one point I thought "I have to look this up, I have to understand why this is happening, maybe if I do I can do something."

Then a thought in my head said "If you don't look this up, this will just be a dream, if you do look it up you will be stuck here forever." And so I didn't look it up.

Now the really crazy part that feels like god was just trying to cure my depression: At one point it was the 2nd to last day before the world ended, in the dream I went to sleep and "woke up" in a world where it was just a dream but I felt like my same younger self. I had such a sense of relief and joy and excitement for life, then I "woke up" from the dream within a dream and returned to the dream of the world ending, and it really conditioned my brain to think "jesus, things are so perfect. If only the world wasn't ending, I could feel so good in a world where I have the gift of life and a future."

This was actually before the part where I made the bargain with my thoughts to not look it up. And it was only after this bargain that I woke up into this our real reality. I don't think I made it to the final final moments of the dream world. It was definitely going to end.

But if I were god or a doctor trying to use dreams to cure depressed people this is like the perfect treatment: "Put them in good mindset but convince them world is truly ending, have them realize how much of a waste that is and how much of an amazing gift life is by 'waking up' in dream within dream where they are their good selves without world ending, to enhance the message even further have them return to the good self in doomed dream, and then have them wake back up to reality."

It basically teaches me: "there would be hope but world is ending" -> "true joy at being alive is possible" -> "there would be hope but world is ending" -> "reality"

I wish I could have this dream every night, because while it was stressful it's conditioned me to remember a better state of consciousness, what it's like to not disassociate and then on top of that to have an experience that teaches me the beauty and greatness of existence.

If I felt the way I felt during the "true joy at being alive is possible" dream within the dream I would be cured of my depression. That person was not depressed but happy and excited to exist. And for a bit tonight while I slept I felt that way. As a depressed person, It's honestly crazy for me to think that my brain is even capable of feeling that way, but it is, and tonight it did.

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Its the Sith speaking

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Interesting.

Threat of imminent death and losing things makes you appreciate the life you take for granted. Hopefully you can do something with that.

Watch Melancholia

That ia basically Kirsten Dunst plot.

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Keith_Valentine posted...

Interesting.

Threat of imminent death and losing things makes you appreciate the life you take for granted. Hopefully you can do something with that.

I will definitely try.

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Wow TC just read about the things you did on LL. I have to tag you appropriately.

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Veggeta_MAX posted...

Wow TC just read about the things you did on LL. I have to tag you appropriately.

It was almost a decade ago, I was in a dark place, even so, how I intended to act and how I was perceived were two very different things, I've apologized many times over and since moved on.

There's literally nothing else I can do at this point.

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Inception 2

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Looked gf posted...

Inception 2

It was weird, it is the first time I can recall having 2 distinct narratives one where I am in a dream, the second one I go to and then wake back up into the first dream from.

Like I've had the "is this all just a dream" sensation before, or not knowing what was real or not in a dream, but this felt very real and then I slept and "woke up" back into it which was crazy.

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sounds crazy. also sounds like a great way to motivate yourself in the future.

write the memory down somewhere where it won't get purged.

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Guerrilla Soldier posted...

sounds crazy. also sounds like a great way to motivate yourself in the future.

write the memory down somewhere where it won't get purged.

I did.

Trouble with epiphany moments is that with time you grow to dismiss them some. But I will work very hard for that not to happen with this one.

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I've had plenty of death ideation, but never a whole world-ending dream. I wonder what the significance of this variant is. I'm no practiced interpreter of dreams, but give me a bit.

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