Current Events > I think my life's coming to an end

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I'm not well. I'm having a number of health/body issues that are uncomfortable and I'm too embarrassed to share. I'm 26, uninsured, and have no money. I feel very weak. My head is spinning as I type this and I'm dizzy. It's hard to focus as I type this. I am scared I might have cancer. I can't tell anyone IRL about any of this. I don't talk to anyone about anything and rarely leave the house. I just know I am going to die soon, at a young age having not lived the life Ive always wanted to.

People really don't understand mental illness. I am hurting on the inside. I am disabled. Everything is hard for me. Little things cause me to breakdown and have panic attacks. I've been like this since I was a child and my life has been extremely painful and difficult. Now it's culminated into this. I'm rotting away alone and unable to do anything.

This wasn't everything I wanted to type, but I'm so uncomfortable I can't go on.

I mean, if you feel like that, a doctor would probably be good to talk to. And maybe some fresh air. Just going outside makes me feel a little better sometimes. Not even far. Just even on the porch or something...
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Debt is better than death.

Get yourself checked out.

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No one can really understand what you're going through but I can assure you that you're not the only one who is also going through such emotional and mental turmoil either.

I used to have these moments of hopelessness and depression too so I do get it. I found a therapist who helped out a ton so I think you should hang in there and reach out to a non-profit community source that will help you for no cost if you're broke. Don't be scared, you can take control, and you can get through this, and it will get much better as you get stronger.

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