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Last Topic: 8:55:15pm, 05/03/2024
Last Post: 8:58:11pm, 05/02/2024
BlazinBlue88 posted...
Why couldn't TC stay and attempt to spread positivity on the board instead of berating everyone?
Im a weak person, is why.
Im not strong enough to ignore my acidic tendencies. Look at my signature. Ive always wanted to be a good person. To be someone that people look up to.
But at the end if the day. Im not strong enough. The happiest times in my life were when I was on this cruise with my girlfriend and when I was in the stress center after almost shooting myself.
To be completely honest. I just dont trust myself to not seep back into the negativity. Cuttin in farm isnt even my first account. I closed cuttin in town and cuttin in city before. And I returned.
But with the CE changes. I see an opportunity. A chance to make things permanent.
Nobody looks up to me here. Nobody even thinks Im a good person. Maybe they are right.
But I want to be a good person to my girlfriend. And to my mother. And my dog. And my family.
and constantly coming here just drains me. As much as I hate admitting.
So Im doing this to be a better person. Its truly my weakness at the end of the day. Im not strong enough to be a good person. Its why I envy certain posters that make a difference in the real world. I cant even do it on a message board.
But visiting places like Honduras and seeing how little Americans gave a shit and the locals still were generous and eager to share their culture
I have to make a change. And this is one of many steps to doing so.
Thats all.
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A show of kindness may not do much help, but a show of cruelty may do much harm.