badjay posted...
Did...did you ever ask him how it felt when he just dropped unconscious twice?
We've brought it up a few times trying to get him to be more appreciative of family. But he denies it. Says we'd let him die if we had the chance. When we say we literally helped save him twice he says we're lying and it wasn't as bad as we say.
badjay posted...
Regardless, the man FEELS like he's died twice, so he's gonna be a bit worried about it a third time especially with warnings from doctors and him knowing he's directly disobeying doctor's orders by smoking even more to cope. He seems to be smoking more to just be like eh fuck it I'll enjoy my last days since I know I'm on my last days. So likely coping.
Could be. But he's mostly always been a chain smoker. He did quit for a long time, then started back up look cool in front of his friends. The doctors said it was making his condition worse, and may have caused it to begin with. But he hasn't stopped or slowed at all. Just started doing it openly when he his it from us before(but it was obvious anyway).
badjay posted...
Enjoy it while he's still around. I don't have a great relationship with my dad either (he's also not a good person) and if he died I believe I won't care but who knows it might just hit me out of left field for some reason.
Yeah, I expect that I'll likely be surprised by emotions when that happens. But when he was in surgery and they told us he probably wouldn't make it, I had no emotions either way. I was just bored waiting on them to tell us if he lived or died. It surprised me at how little I cared and it made me feel like a bad person.