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Vicious_Dios posted...

This is why broke people stay broke, I swear to God.

They burn and blow their money quickly on shit like this. Especially when the money wasn't earned.

Im sure the wealthy spend their money frugally and never buy expensive shit just because they can.

Pepys_Monster posted...

I've heard adoption is strict. You may just have to adopt a dog.

Yea, I heard that too.

Ive always wanted a little one. And I dont mind adopting. But I feel like itd be hard for me.

Dogs dont live long enough and I honestly cant handle that tbh. I cried when my pumpkin started to rot in high school. I thought it was fake and named it and drew a face on it and everything. Then it started dying and I had to bury it.

Im way too sentimental lol.

Im being biologically urged to have a little one like no tomorrow.

How hard is it to adopt a kid if Im a single adult male?

Dunno if theres adoptive parents on CE.

The question being best feat instead of strongest really changes the answer.

I think weebs often times forget overacting is a thing.

Jpn VAs often times have high energy, sure. But to me, the constant screaming sounds like overacting.

I really appreciate the helpful posts here yall.

I know Ive been an ass a few times here. I really started getting jaded as I got older and lost track of myself a bit. I used to live by my sig.

But Im gonna try to get back on track. Im just gonna let things go. It doesnt matter who causes it or whos responsible.

Im just gonna be grateful for the folks I do have around me. And to any strangers along the way.

Im good. A genuine thanks to yall.

This is pathetic. Needing strangers on the internet to help. I hated my father for how he was. For his abuse.

But look what I am now. An alcoholic that wants to beat up women. I tried very hard to not be like him. But I turned out as a carbon copy. Good job me.

What else was I wrong about? Was I never a good person? Was I in the wrong?

Then theres a part of me that feels like I deserve what bad happens to me. That I dont deserve a good life. If I was to truly hurt her. What happens to me afterwards is justified.

Because Im a bad person. I am my fathers son afterall. It was bound to happen.

Time to drink until I pass out lol.

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And Im sorry to you too. Another poster I misjudged.

You describe how I feel. How guilty I feel just having these thoughts.

I just feel sick overall. And overwhelmed.

DespondentDeity posted...

Also if you do a revenge gesture even if its menacing or misfortunate for them, they and anyone else who finds out is gonna think youre not only a bad person but a childish goon. I know that youre neither of those things, and I dont think you would find a way to truly respect yourself. Its ok to be angry, that much is out of your control, but you will feel more fulfilled if you find a constructive way to express it. If you can, find a way to channel it into personal growth.

You are worthy of and deserve admiration and respect, even from yourself, dont sabotage yourself by letting your anger control you.

Hey. Im sorry for being so difficult. You truly are one of the best posters on this site.

I know nobody cares. But I just was released from a stress center last month where I had inpatient care for two weeks. I had the most helpful two weeks in my life there. I met others who wanted to die and had shit they had to deal with.

But I think the thing that hit the hardest was realizing my friend of 8 years was the largest contributor to my stress and depression. No matter how much I tried helping her, shed always take advantage. No matter how much I tried going away, shed keep finding me and guilt tripping me.

From faking pregnancy to threatening suicide. Shes been a nightmare. I was so damn stupid and alone in my teenage years. How could I have known?

But realizing this all at once is tough to handle ig. I keep thinking just get rid of her personally, but I know that is just my kneejerk reaction.

I just feel betrayed because the only person defending her was me. And it turns out everyone else was right.

I am just gonna go to sleep.

Thank you, CE. Never thought Id say that. Considering I try to act superior so much here.

Umbreon posted...

The satisfaction of being better than her.

Like what's your plan here? You make someone feel bad then you... revel in sadistic glee?

Then tomorrow you still feel shitty because you've held onto a grudge for 8 years when they've probably never thought of you.

She just asked for help from me two days ago. The useless bitch cant do anything on her own.

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Ill try to sleep on it. Maybe Im too emotional.

I have maybe misjudged you in the past.

I just felt like hurting her. Physically. I cant stop thinking about how easy it would be to overpower her and just hurt her.

And that realization scares the fuck out of me. I really cant stand her. For her to try emailing me after I block her. Calling from no caller id numbers. She wont leave me the fuck alone and I dont know how to get rid of her otherwise.

But Ill sleep and try to think calmly tomorrow.

This person has been stressing me out with their narcissistic bullshit for 8 years. Shes the last piece of garbage I need to get rid of.

Ive blocked her everywhere. But I want to see her actually hurt. Its not enough to just sleep on it or let it go. I want her to hurt. Badly. I didnt have any power when it came to my dad, but I have power when it comes to her.

Worst case scenario, I ask for forgiveness.

What do I gain by ignoring these urges?

I really want to do something very bad to a very bad person CE. I need help convincing me to not do it.

My friends are probably sleeping and I dont want to stress them out late at night.

But for the first time in my life I legitimately want to do something bad to another person. I just need a reason not to do it.

Shabriri posted...

i dont treat people right fer perks

there's a right way to treat people and a wrong way to treat people. just how it is

How should you treat manipulative pieces of shit that think they can ruin lives and not suffer any fucking consequences?

Trying to keep it together.

Bad people have friends. Evil people have those that support them.

Why be a good person? What do you get out of it?

Im trying to rationalize it. Why not just not give a damn? Who cares? Just ask forgiveness and accept Jesus and all will be forgiven, right?

Well Im sorry, Jesus. Because Im gonna do some bad shit because I want to. What better place to confess than a dying video game message board.

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He had a great intro. Then it was Heroes beat everyone cliche garbage with the main character getting a lame op powerup.

And some irrelevant dude dying. How sad /s.

chukklez17dc posted...

Did you really watch a show for 6 seasons not enjoying it?

I didnt not enjoy it. Its just been an okay show for me. I just really hate almost every scene with the main character. Which really drags it down for me. I also really disliked the Overhaul arc and whatever the fuck season five was at the start.

Hey. It might be the liquor talking.

But Im sorry if I try to seem above CE at times. It took me almost 3 decades to actually feel like I have a good footing in life so I just like to feel superior.

I really appreciate the advice so far in this topic. Ill try to calm down and explain myself calmly with a pre-prepared message. I do love her as a friend. But me and her just arent compatible. I cant blame myself

Thank you, CE.

Arcanine2009 posted...

I don't think this is good for your mental health. I I don't know the situation between you and that friend. Are they depressed? Sometimes it's a cry for help. But she sounds like a toxic individual who doesn't have things together. You don't have to be friends with her anymore. Tell her how you feel in a respectful way and that you don't want to be friends anymore because she is emotionally draining. And block her.

Shes attempted suicide before and I always feel so guilty whenever I try leaving because she either directly or indirectly states she wont do it since Im around. She occasionally mentions how she mentions me in suicide notes she drafts and it just stresses me the hell out.

But I feel like shit if I leave because she immediately starts crying or declaring Imjust like everyone else that leaves her. And I just feel like shes emotionally trapping me.

Imnot strong enough against her to break things off calmly. She literally tossed my stuff by the dumpster when I said I didnt want to live with her anymore.

We arent even a romantic thing. Shes emotionally manipulative and I dont trust myself to handle it.

Kitt posted...

You can go back and forth with this person like a couple of high school girls. Or, get your notepad out cause this is a doozy -- you can be the adult in the situation (much like how you wanted her behave like an adult) a simply break all communications with her. Hell, have a whole conversation breaking down why you don't want to associate with her anymore.

You already plan on ending the relationship anyway. Why not just do it in a way that at least makes you look like the bigger person in the end, rather than going off look an emotionally unstable crazy person?

Yea yea. Youre maybe right. If I write down what I want to say ahead of time, maybe I can explain in a calm fashion. I shouldnt be emotional about this.

Slaya4 posted...

Just leave her ass on read. You're wasting too much time and emotion on a person who you describe as being a nobody. Telling her you hate her is more hassle then it worth. Block her number and keep it pushing.

I really want the satisfaction of her being hurt tbh. It would really make my fucking day.

But if people think blocking is better, I can try it.

SrRd_RacinG posted...

Close your mouth and then proceed to seal your nostrils with a firm grip. When you've given up and can no longer breathe, please let go of your grip and open your mouth wide to allow your breath back in. Then you will the realize how comical anger is. It's as temporary as the moonlight outside your window. It'll pass.

Bro, I dunno. I hate my father with an intensity I cant verbalize. My friend is reaching that level.

Im not a good person. I dunno if I can do that.

silverpine posted...

so you tried to turn a ho into a housewife and now you HATE her. you should have just accepted who she is and been her friend even if she's trashy.

I wasnt into her romantically. I was one of those losers who showed unconditionally loyalty to anyone who gave them positive attention. She just lucked out.

I have Captain save-a-hoe syndrome too, so it doesnt help. I blame my abusive ass father and feeling guilty I couldnt help my mom or Yorkie.

But I know Ill hurt myself staying friends with her. Because she makes me revert to pussy me. Shes the last fragment of me in that mindset. Shes the only person that could get $100s of dollars out of me by just asking. Thats dangerous af. I need to burn this bridge.

ArchNemo posted...

That's all fine. Nothing is wrong with any of that.

But do you really need to go out of your way to hurt them on the way out? At the end of the day it's none of my business and I dunno your relationship. It just seems cruel to me and something you could end up regretting, either naturally down the line or depending on how she reacts.

You know, I could be way off and you could be totally justified. But maybe take a minute to decide if this is really something you wanna do to someone.

I dunno man. Im drinking tonight and just really wanna hurt her tbh. It will feel damn good. What better place thanCe to vent.

silverpine posted...

help her how....?

When we lived together, I tried to teach her how credit works. And how to file taxes. And how to not fucking fight other women over dudes. And how to not waste money on weed. And how posting nothing but ass on instagram wont attract good guys. Or how paying bills helps. Or how sometimes you dont need to immediately buy luxuries. Or how eating leftovers saves money.

Basic adult shit. But 8 years in, she started as a dumbass, continues as a dumbass. Constantly needing money or emotional support and Im sick of it.

Shes a disrespectful (C-word gfaq wont lemme use) and needs to drop off a cliff for all I care.

And tbh. Since I dont give a shit. Im using this topic to vent.

The cocky bitch had the nerve to ask me if I would help her if she got pregnant. Like wtf? She knows starting a family and having a little one is one of my biggest dreams. To think she could substitute for that is loony af.

Fuck off.

ArchNemo posted...

So, now that you're in a better position and you feel you don't need them, you're going to shut them down. But when you were in a crappy position and (presumably) didn't have anyone else you had no issue not cutting ties?

It kinda sounds to me like you took advantage of each other.

Not saying you need to keep contact with them, not at all. Look out for yourself first.

Just questioning why you feel the need to hurt the person on the way out.

Of course we took advantage of eachother. It was extremely codependent and not healthy. But I tried for years to help her be independent. But she never learns. She keeps fucking up and needing bail outs. Thats fine when Im a teenager. But Im trying to start a family. Settle down. I cant have some narcissistic deadbeat hitting me up at 3am crying for help.

I tried to be a good friend. I have. But some people are just shit. And they always will be.

I tried having faith in folks. But some people just cant be redeemed. It sucks, but thats my conclusion.

SrRd_RacinG posted...

Your suffering is too strong. You both are two suffering beings. Say not a word to him.

If I dont say anything, theyll reach out. Andmy dumbass will go oh yay! I like hearing from them! And reciprocate. Even if they are completely useless and a parasite.

Im not the socially inept dweeb I once was. I have healthy friends now. I speak with my family. I have a social life. Im in good shape. Ihave a career.

But this fucking grandfatherd in loser is still around taking my energy and happiness. Fuck her and what they stand for. I need to ensure they know I hate them with all I can hate with.

ArchNemo posted...

Why have you not just cut them out of your life before this point?

Like, why live with extreme hatred of them, posing as their friend, to the point where you're going to enjoy being awful to them instead of just saying "You know, this really isn't working for me:

Because for eight years, they have been an emotional leech. Emotional manipulative. And took advantage of a younger me that was an ostracized loser.

Its hard to break things off when they call at 3am crying about how if it wasnt for you, theyd be dead.

So when you try to cut them off, youre illogical ass emotions wont let you. So Im just gonna burn the whole damn bridge down. And then murder the engineers.

Im prepping to tell a friend this. I have been withholding extreme hatred for this person for quite some time. They are the last remnants of negativity in my life.

Im gonna genuinely enjoy being a cartoon villain to them. Like, after a certain point, fuck it.

Ricemills posted...

i thought that was pretty clear, other than the kinda lame attemp of the pun on Ann Takamaki's name.
how many time Ryuji said "for real?" in th game anyway? he stil doing that eveb until the end

Ryuji definitely had a way better awakening tho. So his opinion is off.

ChocoboMogALT posted...

That's the peak of MHA, IMO. Take that for what you will.

Ah shit. Dont tell me thats the most engaging this thing gets.

yeaaaa, without an indication of what season, Im not reading that spoiler tag >_>

If my car isnt already, I do lock it if someone is approaching my vehicle. I dont care if they hear it.

Ive been lazily watching this anime because Ive been unimpressed with it. It gives my AoT vibes were the main three are way too lame and I like the devolvement of the antagonists and side characters way more.

But Episode 3 was great. I like Hawks and Twice, and having Twice go out like that was amazing. Its about time MHA has some balls and take out main characters. Now we just need a good guy to bite it, and Ill be invested.

I hope you die, Hawks. What right do you have to look at me and call me unlucky. was such tragic final words.

Maybe this season will actually by hype. Good shit.

StarbucksWorker posted...

so youre not ok with $150m?

Bro, hes being funny. Cmon.

Psuedo_Audacity posted...

Do you think being being prejudicial is being accurate? Do you think unfair reflects a situation where it is actually accurate to be unfair?

The concept of fairness is subjective.

Is it unfair that old people are not as wanted for a physically demanding job? You can argue yes. But Im sure theres places that still have a bias for younger hires or a prejudice against the elderly.

I dont see where accuracy plays a role here.

When it comes to political views, its predominantly subjective views. Not statistical analysis. So the concept of fairness can be argued almost always. See: Trans athletes and the debate around that.

I dunno why you can specifically use a statistical viewpoint and why that would innately be the better definition than a subjective bias like my food example.

ChopinList posted...

Maybe Im talking to a wrong crowd here.

Youre on CE talking about parties.

Of course you are, lol.

Psuedo_Audacity posted...

You might want to look at what the word bias means.

This isnt a rebuttal.

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/6/5/4/AAZ897AAD1hW.jpg

Now what? Where does objective accuracy come into play?

Psuedo_Audacity posted...

I'm interpreting the question as it is written, if there is a bias. Bias means inaccurate.

Eh, I disagree with this. Bias just means you are prone to supporting one thing over the other.

If I like Italian food over Chinese, Im probably gonna be bias when it comes to where to eat. Has nothing to do with objective accuracy.

I cant speak on the moderation thing. Ive seen everything get moderated. Just depends on the moderators

LeCh0nk posted...

That's debatable. I'd rather look like a mature man (assuming I take care of myself, which I do) than a kid.

This.

People choosing 18 because of looks are obviously children themselves.

HudGard posted...

https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/a/user_image/5/6/4/AACrrZAAD1f8.jpg

This one wins so far lol.

Psuedo_Audacity posted...

Dude, you just relayed that you thought that public health response to a pandemic is a left-wing talking point. I think you might not have the most reasonable definition of "left" vs "right".

I think youre interpreting the question as is CE too left leaning whereas Im interpreting the question as is CE left leaning in general.

Nobody sane who votes that its left leaning is saying its bad.

By your own admission, the covid reaction has been politicized. Whether it should or not is not my argument nor do I care to.

Just like how the rights for minorities and the lgbtq shouldnt be politicized, it still is. And one side (the right) is typically the one pushing the narrative. I am aware of that.

But you cant just ignore its being done either.

A poster earlier in this topic said it best:

Bleuets posted...

Its not bad and Im not against it, though I do wish there was a bit more self awareness about the issue. If someone was like yea Im pretty liberal and I realize outside of these message boards a lot of people dont think the same way I do. Id be like cool, got a self aware person here.

but instead its more like no Im not liberal I look this test Im 22.5 on the scale, not liberal at all!

Psuedo_Audacity posted...

The most parsimonous explanation for a majority of posters saying that a forum is too "left" or "right" is delusion lol. Otherwise, you would expect those responses to be a minority.

Dude, the board is left leaning.

I dunno why someone would be opposing that opinion. Its way better to be left leaning than right leaning. imo.

This place definitely isnt neutral.

Psuedo_Audacity posted...

Understanding appropriate responses to a pandemic is not "left", and the very fact that you frame it as such is a product of right-wing misinformation.

Well, the problem is that it is left leaning.

Hence, a lot of right leaning stuff is a bit nutty..

I mean CE obviously is left leaning. So many posters hounding you about Covid and staying inside is proof of that even 2 years after it started.

But its not a bad thing? A lot of right wing stuff is a bit nutty.

I feel like folks saying Im 40, it sucks! Didnt take care of their body at all.

Id take 40. Looking 18 doesnt sound appealing at all. Id lose my facial hair and no woman wants to date a child.

Terrible poll options lol.

--Zero- posted...

Why hate on people who personally want to live in an era they think theyd be happier in? Just because they want to live in the 50s doesnt mean they would have been a raging racist.

The 70s or 80s would had legit been pretty awesome time to live with more opportunities to own a home, opportunities to invest, and generally would had been overall happier without social media. The music scene was the best itd ever been and the girls were great. Movie theaters and malls were awesome. I got to enjoy the 90s, but man being able to relive all 3 generations would had been a good time for me personally.

This is CE. Its not okay to have a different opinion or view.

Oubliettes posted...

not cheating but i would say your average person would feel like some boundaries are being crossed

This.

The guy isnt cheating, but he isnt being respectful imo.